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Linda Hey you ! How are you doing ? You know you were a big part of me really working at trying to get to the SOS.

Thank you I was really happy with my self, I over came the adversity, maintained my cool, kept my thoughts clear and precise. up until the urge hit me. My cousin was happy he has been wanting to quit and swore I wouldnt, so who knows may get him on the road to being smoke free.

On my way to my wildlife refuge Duty, couple mile before my exit my truck start to die. Get to the side of the I15 in the middle of the desert and coast to a stop. my alternator belt broken and without charge my battery die. This was not a side of the freeway repair so I call my Cousin, He lives back down the freeway 80 or so miles, so long story short we get it to run without the belt and get it to the refuge and my cousin heads back home. Now all this time I am doing ready good, until I start to see what I need to do to fix it. So after 3 or so hours and still no closer to getting it fixed the beer and 100 degrees start getting to me and then it happens I WANT A SMOKE, Not a little urge so I grab my phone type in quit train and up it pops go to SOS and No way Jose, must log in to access SOS so I try one of the others again ONE WAY JOSE. By the time I gave up the cussing and cursing trying to get access the urge had shrank down to something I could deal with. Well with 3 tall boys down and a super great Smoked Ribeye steak consumed I dosed off. Crises Obverted my quit is intact I forgot to mention my cousin is a chain smoker, we use to run together when I hit the Bars rally hard back in the day. I also forgot to mention he owned the Bar, free beer !

Yep On the Flip Flop my Good Buddy

OK my work week is almost over, I am heading up to Protect my wildlife refuge from all the bad guys, Running My trusted Gator down the dry riverbed at break neck speeds, HEE HAAA I'll call out as a bug fly's down my throat gagging me. I break off the chase to complete my high speed snack by washing its buzzing butt down with a beverage. Damn the Bad guys ran for the boarder again and got away, while at least till next we meet. I will get back to you all in 4 days, keep on keeping On my friends and acquaints

Thank you Linda, I wasn't looking forward to jumping into that freezing water! BURRRRRR

your eyes have learned to be forgiving, there are still ugly kids out there believe me

I have confidence in you Linda, you have been in this spot before and you struggled your way thru it and you can again. Be your own counsel if I were you what would you tell me, what would you suggest I should Do! Tell me Help me please Linda why should I not smoke that cigar I have hiden in my freezer!

There you go you still made my Day !

Your 4 months was not a waste of time, The healing has started,. all you have leaned was not a waste of time, all you have been thru was not a waste of time Now the time you spend holding onto those smokes you bought is a waste of time. Don't be me and wait for a heart attach, your eyes to start going blind Don't you give up, reset your counter and get back to it

OK You stumbled, dust your self off and get back on track, Call, PM, jog to or drive to this one person, Hug , cry and work your way out of this darkness. So what little advice I have for this Moment is Primal screams Get a Pillow bury your face in it and scream, curse, and Yell. Kick your Feet and have an all out tantrum, exhaust your self, get it all out. If once is not enough do it twice and 3 times. You are not done, your quit is not done

What a fantastic thing to start my day with, Good Job Linda ! Not only did you do something wondrously Great for your self You gave a great start to Many here, also, your strength and determination honors you !

Honey tames the savage beasts

Eat something sweet, chocolate is great it will kick in some endorphins to help you.

Some people crumble under pressure Some people Thrive under pressure I would just assume to live without it Just call me Molasses

I think that would be called Utopia !

My Life is in a good Place My Heart is full and at Peace My Lungs are free of smoke and soot My eyes are getting better by the Day My soul is Proud of who I am

What does your wide eyed innocence look like ? I love that grin !

echoes of past life rattle thru my mind My innocence taken by a first love That first Kiss, heart pounding and gazing deeply into each others eyes Remember the trembling and rush of Holding hands It took so little to fill me full. There is a time in our Lives That wide eyed innocence prevails, The Feelings, laughter and Love all stored away neatly in our subconscious. A safe place for us to return to when we need a safe Haven. I love to visit this place in my mind, especially in my dreams when all feels so real you get to live those moments over again and again. when is the last time you relived your innocence ?

I do need to clear something up, I am Not a church going Man. I believe I am / we are Gods temple and it is in this temple we worship him, I believe we now are a congregation and there is no need for a church full of Sunday Better than thou one day believers. We as a People have the ability to be make this world a wonderful place and I am just one tiny minute piece of that

And then there was my first Wife she was my Soul Mate, My undercover angel !

My Father knew his angels before he past, he had a couple one was a kid he pulled out of a truck that flipped off of a bridge and landed on its roof, My dad pulled him out and got him breathing again, the kid died a couple weeks later from complications. Telly was my moms advocate to God, he saw things and practiced healing described what my dads angles looked like. when my mom told my dad he said one was the kid. As a Family we have been blessed, believe me we have had our share of grief and hard times, but we always work thru it.

No need for eye drops today, I am feeling pretty Humble and Fortinet right now