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Pilgrim you are so right. Food for thought I also was a cigarette smoker for over 15 years. I will never forget when I ran out of vapes and bought a pack of smokes. Took one hit and was like where is the nicotine buzz ?? Nothing I was like what the hell, couldn't get a vape pod quick enouph. Hine sight I should've figured the trouble I was going to face if I decided to give it up. Hang in there I sware and promise it does get better. Just remember box breathing, I did plenty of it. To me vape pods should be banned but Good luck fighting the industry. Hang in there you got this !!!

Well it's about 2 months and feeling better. Been down this road before but this time with a vape instead of smoking. I did it for 2 years but 2 years to many. I just want to throw something out there, a question if I an nuts or just what is going on. Since my newly and last quit seriously, I have had days of memories I have not thought of in over years, some memories I totally forgot about my entire life and bam, it hits me. I feel like I just dusted off the hard drive in my head again. I will admit it's flashbacks of my life give or take but not all are pleasant dug up memories. Very strange thing if you ask me. Also onto something real quick. Anyone here using a vape or trying to quit who used a vape, mainly Vuse or other devices that have 5.0%. I strongly recommend stepping down if you are quitting. Cold turkey from a 5.0 % is 50mg of straight up nicotine. The highest you can get which is what I was using then stepped down to a 2.4%, which is still ridiculously high. When I smoked I smoked ultra lights until I quit those. Anyway about the vaping, straight up nicotine without any of the ungodly about of other chemicals. Withdraw and cravings were beyond the gates of hell. I am not joking on that. I shocked my system so bad I went into this thing called derealization which scared the life out of me and lead to panic attacks. I am two months in and finally gradually staying landed for most of the day. My sleep was horrible, depression was was so bad that I honestly have learned my lesson. I will not pick up nicotine again the withdraw truly does scare me that much that I am afraid of it. Anyway enough of my rant. God bless to all who threw the crutch away !! Believe in yourself, you can do this. Those who are on the fence, dive in both feet and hang on. Just remember the good Lord always promised he is with you, never said he wouldn't let bad things happen but he is always by your side !!

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I am nearly a month free of this nicotine demon, yes a true false security demon that controlled me for nearly 2 years. I just want to ask a few questions and leave a few comments. Needless to say I can remember the day and nearly time I picked up a pack 7 years free. My mother passed that day at 12:17 pm at age 91. She had a terrific life! I also caught my wife later that day doing something she shouldn't have been doing. Leave it at that. I drove straight to the store and bought a pack. I was broken again. Very stressful year followed and switched to vaping. Vuze 5.0 then 2.4. Just wanted to give a short highlight. To the main topic: This quit is very different. Not to bad on the cravings, first week was tough actually first 5 days. Settled down now. I was hit with something I never had before. Anxiety with derealization and depersonlization which lead to some major panic attacks. Ready to jump out of my skin daily for hours on end and weeks on end. Finally settled a pretty good bit now. I would wake up in the morning praying to God to get me threw the day. I will admit I am a strong person but this time I was thinking I cannot do this or take it anymore. Nearly started again but didn't. I am not kidding when I say I was at the threshold of hell !! The world, life didn't seem real. Let's just say anxiety couldn't have gotten any worse. I wished I would pass out so my mind would reset. It didn't the fker would hold me to the edge and then stop. No to very little relief. I just wanted to land but couldn't. In the last week it has been getting better. I did my homework and checked that quitting vaping could be significantly harder than cigarettes. Go figure a pure straight shot of nicotine out of a 50mg or 24mg vape. Extremely high and it should be illegal. I never new this until I quit. One thing I can say, I never smoked enough until I got nausea like I have with vaping. Thats a crap ton of nicotine. Anyway withdraw was at times felt like my nervous system had the flu.Hard to explain. Just so much more intense. Anyway just want to put this out there that vaping really isn't a better alternative. Just ride the waves the storm will ease up give it time. That is all for now. Take care everyone!!

Hello shy and welcome, I am on my first month of my final quit of nicotine. All I can tell you is hang in there and it will be a bumpy ride but isn't that why we all are here. I really don't know where to start other than telling you I have been there 3 times where you are and this is the last time. 3 strikes your out for good but it wasn't planned that way. I only gave in for almost 2 years but it has been detrimental. I have a 10 plus year quit and a 7 year quit. Just had a lung scan and all is well. THANK GOD !! and I mean it. I can't even begin to tell you the anxiety and depression and fight or flight or even panic attack's. I had them all. Some people don't get much other than grumpy or something but I had the Heinz 57, believe me. Remember the internet can be your crutch at times. There is a ton of information out there and coping skills to learn. Just remember, you got this and be kind to yourself !!

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Well it's been nearly a week. Cravings are still insane to the point where my throat gets tight. Just craziness. Being Free !!! I will be there again !!!

Yes !!! That is it ! Thank you so much. It's a true masterpiece!!

Oh that is it !! Just what the doctor ordered!! Thank you so much !!!

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Well starting on day 4 and what a ride it has been. I cannot believe the cravings and the spontaneous movements of my arm grabbing and looking for my vape. Today was not a good day. Anxiety, depression constant throughout most of the day. Sunsetting and finally calming down. Biological clock I guess. I have made several promises to my Lord that this is it and for help getting me through this. Not much of a religious man but sometimes you need a reminder. I will NOT go on meds to get me through this, just another battle I will have to fight. Please can someone find the poem, I believed it was called " The little gray room". What a masterpiece that is. Would love to read it again.

Well here it is 1:28 AM on the start of day 3. Restless leg going on. Very little to no sleep. Day 2 was much better but today not so good but not as bad as day 1.Anyway cravings so bad my throat gets tight. Mood swings get pretty intense at times. Tierd but can't sleep. Was reading some of my old posts, what did I do I ask myself ? I came so far but without getting into my personal life, I can say I caved. On the lighter side the only benefit from smoking and vaping is I don't smell like a rotten ashtray. That is the only benefit, withdraw is much more intense as are the cravings. You know the hell of this is I had no plans on quitting again. Went to doctor for check up, blood work and everything is great. Perfect numbers. Blood pressure was 154/96 ...not good. Well I do have whitecoat syndrome but who knows. Anyway came home looked at the vuse alto pod with a 2.4% took a hit and threw the thing in the garbage. Nearly dug back after it and thought, what the heck are you doing. I sit and think sometimes, is my life this boring that I have to tempt fate and start on nicotine again and quit again and walk threw the gates of hell again. Why ??? I don't get it. What is it about this drug that is so powerful and yet legal. Doesn't hinder your daily function or the ability to stay in shape. I'm not short of breath from vaping like I was with the ciggs. My smell is great,taste is great and I can breath. Talk about dancing with the devil. We just find more and alternate ways to keep the addiction going. Sorry for the rant, going to try and sleep a bit... Good luck on that. Godbless everyone in here and Godspeed to you all. Some support these two are..

Hi Johnny, yes I was on QSMB years ago. I just think it's time to put this nicdemond to bed once and for all !!

I fell off the train 2 years ago when my mom passed away. I thought I would vape rather than smoke. So here I am on my 12th hour of my quit which is the hardest thing ever. I vaped 2.4% vuse and regret every second of it now. The cravings are insane, the axiety and depression are far worse than when I quit smoking. Just reaching out and taking it one moment at a time. Good God I never realized just how batshit crazy nicotine is !!