Oh Ren I'm sorry I missed you earlier. I hope you still standing strong.
Did you know that pineapple is a natural antihistamine? My kid has a lot of allergies that set of hives so we often have to face the issue of being out and about without any medication, a bottle of pineapple juice might not do the wonders of a powerful antihistamine but it gives her up to 4 hours of relief from the worst of the hive symptoms and reasonably quickly. We also use honey directly onto the hives, because honey is like a miracle drug.
Being sick, especially when you know its because its your own body is attacking itself (I have just been diagnosed with Graves disease) is a miserable time. I hear ya. BUT you do care about your quit because you came in here an did an SOS. That was brave, cos you have to put yourself out there and say why, and while you might feel weak you are really incredibly strong... the strong person puts it out there, tell their fellow travelers and fights for something they believe in. A weak person doesn't sos. Not smoking hasn't caused your illness, smoking will not cure it... sure it will distract you for the first 20 seconds, give you a bit of a rush... and then you will feel crappy because your sick, you will feel crappy cos you have hives but even more importantly you will feel crappy because having a smoke didn't cure you, your don't feel any better and you let yourself down, you listened to the nicobitch, had a 'magic smoke' and omg surprise, surprise there was no magic... you aint no better... and you are now back to day dot detox.
Now lets look at all the fantastic things that have happened since you quit.... you got to meet us, were all pretty fantastic , but more importantly you got to know your own inner strength, you improved your lung health, your voice improved, its range, how long you could hold a note, especially those high ones, your fitness improved, you were feeling better within and about yourself, you grew as a person. You know all of this is true, and probably more stuff you haven't spoken about on the boards. You proved to yourself and your doubters that you are one strong arse bitch who can and will do anything she puts her mind too regardless of the hurdles and temptations in her path. Hell babes you live with not 1 but 2 smokers and your doing this. Pause for a second and consider that, then you give yourself a pat on the back cos you bloody well deserve one.
So lets look at what you do get if you have that smoke:
1. 20-30 seconds of a chemical induced head rush and high
2. Mental anguish as you run yourself through the guilt mill (and you know you will)
3. The knowledge that you need to start your quit again.
Chookas.