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OK so those who have been around for a while know I had a really big quit that I tossed away at the first opportunity that presented itself that I could use as a 'legitimate' excuse... in my case it took over 6 years for the right excuse to present itself.... now there are 2 huge, groaning differences between that quit and this quit... so lets all them THEN and NOW: 1. THEN: every day I wanted a cig, every single day I wanted one when I got up, in the car, after food, at break time (which is hard cos in Australia break time is called smoko)... all day every day I wanted one and I wanted one so much it hurt. NOW - I can go whole days, in a row, without even thinking about one. Sometimes I have a passing thought and sometimes I still have a full blown crave, but these times are fewer and further apart AND less intense each time. 2. THEN: I was keeping my quit solely to prove others wrong, I didn't want to be quit but no way was I giving up the quit so everyone who said I couldn't do it would be able to say I told you so. NOW - I am doing this for me. I never want to put a stick full of poison to my lips, light it and smoke it again. So this quit for me, is completely different to the first one... sure its been over a decade and maybe I have just forgotten what it was really like, but I haven't, the fear of that ache everyday for the rest of my life was why it was well over a decade until I tried again. I think @Whispers was right, there will be occasional thoughts, but when they happen don't give them purchase and they go away just as quick as they came... I truly believe that @Nancy is right too... in time there wont even be thoughts and I know in my heart that I will get to that place one day because I want to be in that place. I love that it is safe here to admit that there are times when you get the thought, gee I'd like a smoke and as @Jetblack said it is actually helpful to see others have these also.

Fluffy you need to make some rulings here.... where are you fluffy... i bet she's off getting cuddles.

true.... love me an ice coffee any time of year BUT my hot cocolate is made with chocolate buttons and milk... TNP has had a cuppa tea without milk in the last month

^^ do friday hugs from fluffy count?

Hi Christa. Welcome to the Quit Train. I'm another who had a big quit and tossed it away and have come back to do it again. There are a few of us here and I know those ahead of me who much more established in their quits have been a great help to this being my sticky quit. There are also a few of us who deal with anxiety in our life who know that aspect of the quit. Very happy that the prognosis from the doctor was better than it could have been, what a great motivator to hold onto if your having a rough moment. So you can do this, and only you, we can support you in the dark time and laugh at them afterwards with you but only you can hold onto your freedom and keep your quit. Just take it one day at a time, that's all you need to focus on. Today I am not smoking , NOPE, and then protect that statement.

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False ... its months and months since I bought shoes... but I have major new shoe envy cos the ex bought new nike runners and they are st kilda colours (red, black & white) TNP... would wear cloths they didn't really like because they were the right colour

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8 ... just me and the girl for the next month... oh and 3 dogs and 2 cats.... woohoo.

That is fantastic Kelly, I bet it feels fantastic and was a lot easier to achieve than you thought. You should be so proud of being both smoke and NRT free.

^^ Yeah well last time Vienna was the most livable city the Hapsburgs we in power and we all no who that turned out. Its a conspiracy I tell you! Washington.

12... oh so Sslippy is in a snit?? Work will be a joy I am sure.

12 ... you are very chirpy this morning Lord Kent.... wonder what's put you in such a fine mood.

^^ Oh I believe you Fluffy... the spider tales I could tell... Librarian telling me to shoosh.

^ and I just did a little bit of vomit in my mouth.... blurgh

Maybe its time for a switcheroo???? Where is that changeable marsupial when you need him... *deep breath* Upper Ferntree Gully

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hmmm I feel like I should fizchick the U then post the V for myself because your a cheeky bugger and I know what V you are going to post and I;m on a boycott until they do a re-count.

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Congratulations @deb for being 1 month smoke free. Well done on make the decisions to be smoke free and keeping your quit for one month. Rewards are really important so make sure you do something for all the effort and work you have put in to make this milestone. The worst of it is done now. So it would be great to hear how you celebrated your milestone.

Congratulations @Suz916 for being smoke free for 5 months. Well done Suz, what a great base you are building for a lifetime free of smoking and nicotine. Rewards are still very important so make sure you do something special to spoil your self for your achievement. Celebrate this new milestone well.