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Amy, at a certain point at the beginning of my quit I became so tired of my quit. All I thought about was not smoking. I do believe there is a difference between thinking about smoking and thinking about not smoking. In the initial phases of your quit, I think you're consumed with the quit. But then you have to get back to living. Otherwise your life becomes work, laundry, quitting smoking. Once I started living life and doing things again, it got so much easier. Now I don't think about smoking OR not smoking. It does get better. It does take some time though. You can do this.

I am so glad you didn't smoke. The first month of my quit was pretty easy. At 6 weeks I went bat shit crazy. I did one thing though that kept my life pretty much unscathed in the long run (it was hell in the short run). I explained to my husband in a moment of clarity that I loved him and that since he wanted me to quit smoking too, I would appreciate it if he did not hold me accountable for, or take personally, anything I said or did. Looking back, I am surprised that he didn't leave me. I was mean. I was downright mean. I said horrible things to him. Horrible things. I bit him. I cut down his favorite tree. During the time of my craziness, I tried really hard not to make any big decisions. I packed my bags a few times because I thought everyone was against me. Bit paranoid I guess. I am so glad I didn't make any decisions that would be difficult to undo. I am glad I didn't leave. I am glad he didn't leave. He did try to be there for me but at times I just hurt him and he expressed some doubt about our marriage. He was strong for me but he is only human. We are back on a good track now. The quitting smoking gets so much easier. It really does. You will get there. One thing I've become acutely aware of though is that I smothered a lot of emotions with smoking and alcohol. Just smoke and/or drink a little more and nothing permeates the barrier. At this point in my life I am learning how to deal with emotions and expressing myself appropriately. You are reaching the point where the brain fog is lifting. When it started lifting for me, I learned not to react right away but to take a breath and really think about what was happening. Perspective is a truly an amazing concept. I learned mine was all out of whack. Be patient with yourself and ask him to be patient with you. This only last a few short months and then you will have the rest of your life to make up. You can get through this.

Hi action. Good to see you too.

I am so happy to see all the celebrations. Congratulations to all!!!!!

Lynn, sorry I am late. Happy happy 10 months! I am so happy for you! Congratulations!!!

woo hoo andrew!!!!! Congratulations on 8 months!!!

LMAO. Shoot ... need to buy a new razor. Maybe I should just try the hedge trimmers.

Pip!!!! Congratulations. I am so glad that you were here doing this with me. It made it so much easier. Thank you thank you thank you. I am so happy for you!

Holski, I am so happy for you! It has been such a pleasure watching you grow your quit!

6 months is such a huge milestone! Great job!

Congratulations Fay! Time to go bikini shopping!

Really? The first one? ((((((sharon))))) I am so happy for you!!! Congratulations!!! 10 months is freakin fantastic!!!!

Action! Congratulations!!! 6 months feels great doesn't it?

Craig, sorry I am late to your party. I am so thrilled to see you at two months! I am so very proud of you. Keep up the great work!

Stay on the board and post often. It really helped me in the beginning to not lose focus on what I was doing and why.

Thinking about you today Amy. You can do this!

Way to go Petra. It has been an absolute joy quitting with you. You and your quit are truly fabulous!!!

Way to go! That first month is quite fabulous!!!

Way to go!!!! One day at a time. Hours become days, days become weeks ... you are doing absolutely fantastic!

Fantastic job!!! One month is awesome. It gets even better!

Baby Bakon? Really?

God. Please no pictures of that Rob. So gross! Glad you're here though, even with you bringing those bits.

Hey Amber. Glad you are here with baby boy. I wouldn't take any name advice here though!

I am here

Nancy!!!! Okay, I am starting to get deja vu all over again. I need to only post celebrations here from now on!!! I am so very happy for you! I can't believe its been 9 months. You have done this so well and the help you give to others is simply amazing. Thank you Nancy!