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I don't know anything about doctors but I don't think they tell you anything over the phone or email. Don't let your head get away on you. It could be something, it could be nothing, and everything in between. The only thing I'm sure of is that smoking will make everything worse and you'll feel horrible. Whatever this is, you're going to face it without cigarettes, because that's who you are now.

Sounds like a dream you needed to have. Last week I walked into a vape shop on a whim and spent the whole night dreaming about vaping. I never even vaped in real life, but now I feel like I know how much it would suck. Thanks dreams! Also, good work for the sos, and again for not smoking. I'm deducting a half point for going running, cause now you're just showing off.

This won't end well. ps It's fake.

Whatever happened here, that's awesome news. Not an easy way to quit - she's earned it.

Way to go Doreen! Sorry I'm a day late - two years was a real moment of "finality" for me, and deserves to be celebrated.

Warrior, how are you doing? The addiction dies hard, and sometimes it can come out of nowhere and bite you you-know-where. Think of it as a fever that you have to break - it won't stay this way. Be strong.

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Hi Michelle, sorry I'm late, but thank you for the great read!! This is exactly how it's supposed to go, how it has to go. You were tempted, you obsessed, you womaned the hell up and got past it. Perfect. This is exactly why you're here, and why we're here. You win this round, you badass. But there will be more rounds, so bookmark this thread to remind yourself in those moments of weakness who you really are. You'll go through it again and again, and each time your junkie lizard brain will learn how hard you are, and get that much weaker, until eventually there will be no more struggle. Good work.

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I stridently object on the basis that an addiction/recovery website is founded in no small measure upon the presumption of complete support and validation, such that any such artificial gradient (to wit, how can any amount of precious personal information ever be deemed "too much") is destructive to the sense of trust and security required to achieve catharsis and also beets turn my pee red.

Hey MeatHead Happy Anniversary!

Seriously, it's the only way.

somehow it's funnier when you do it

my grooves are sublime as a poo-flinging monkey

I could barely even make myself read the title of this thread. Still, somehow I felt... obligated.

The incredible hulk in my pants.

You were probably that annoying impatient kid who kept ruining Christmas. Anyway, happy three years pig. Please don't show me your underwear.

Boris was a sweety, RIP. Evelyn, I'm glad you're still on the Train.

I think that's an integral part of truly quitting that is too often missed. Good for you for seeing that.

It'll go back and forth for a while, that's just the nature of the battle - hey if it was easy, everybody would do it! But you already got through hell week, and even though occasional craves will continue to snipe at you, and you might even feel like you go backwards a few times, on the whole you can expect things to get consistently better from here on out.

Yes, because sausage-having is definitely a great way to derail the previous meme... Happy Friday!!! :)

Chrispy bakon. That's hot.

out standing !!!

You bet it feels overwhelming! But it won't last, as long as you keep faith. I'm fond of pointing out that you don't actually have to *do* anything here, just *not* do something, so whelm to your heart's content! Scream, cry, bathe, chat, sleep, it's all good. And keep talking to us. This board exists to respond and encourage, and every single one of us either is or was exactly where you are now. You picked a good name. Do what it says. :)

Pardon my direct -you need to stop thinking like that. This is fully in your control, you don't "hope" about things like that, you decide them. And you, my dear friend, have already made this decision. N.O.P.E. Now, you "hope" it won't suck. Too bad, it already does, you can't control that. On the upside you're right in the worst of it, tomorrow will probably be a lot better. But then even later it will suck again, and you will only be the boss of you. One last thing - there's a lot more at stake here than just 4 days.