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I was the same way with my creative endeavours, and probably figured that association was permanent. It's not, it's all part of the illusion, you'll probably write a poem about it some day. Earlier you asked for benefits, so here's a few of mine: stamina way up, coughing gone, I don't see stars when I stand up too fast, I sleep so much better and deeper, I'm much more relaxed overall, I smell both great and well... I'll think of some more later. Welcome and way to go! ps protip - go to bed early!

This saucy duck is only good for the goose. Bakon and me have made a provisional arrangement, though I don't think he really understands it fully.

... ummmm... thanks?

Way to go!

I think most do. But, no offense intended (and I know this won't make me popular here), not every cop is a good cop. And some folks get to see more of that than others. That said, this is a horrible tragedy.

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Oh, I dunno. The very fact she denied it preemptively just makes me think she's hiding something. Methinks thou dost &tc.

"Earth's first big predatory monster was a weird water bug as big as Tom Cruise, newly found fossils show." That's a truly great lede, and made me laugh. The rest is here, and is a normal article: http://www.torontosun.com/2015/09/01/giant-sea-scorpion-first-real-big-predator-study

Japan. He's in Japan. I know this because he said so in another thread ALSO started by bakon. Oh, but there was also this clue: So I would have said China, because ever heard of Kobe beef? Hell, they eat that stuff up over there. But I would have been wrong, and I don't know what would have happened next, because I am never wrong. But bakon was wrong about meathead eating beef, and that's three kinds of meat wrong right there. And that's why I don't play these games.

Sorry I missed this, was on a road trip myself, but one month is a massive deal. Belated congrats!

Happy two things!

Outstanding Leanna, congratulations!

Two years, amazing! Nicely done.

I swear, reading your posts is like spending half an hour deciphering elder futhark before you notice the chicken scratching. I'll have you know duck just spent the last week camping. Oddly, upon reflection, every campsite had a pond, and there was more than one other duck, and a few loons. Oh, and the birds literally ate out of my hand. hmmm....

Weak is fine. You don't have to fight it, you know. You don't have to do anything. You just have to not do something - and you won't, not this time. Go ahead, be weak as a kitten, soft as a baby, lay on the floor and meow and cry if you want to, none of it matters. Just don't smoke. Imagine, for a moment, that it wasn't a monkey but a bear! (I just got back from camping, so bears are on the brain). If you were being mauled by a monster grizzly, you wouldn't define "success" by whether you beat up the bear or not, you'd be happy just to make it out alive. Roll in a ball, play dead, whatever it took wouldn't matter, just so it leaves you alone. And so it is.

You're a butterfly! And butterflies were made to fly, fly away. High away, bye bye. oooh eee oooh eee oooh Elton F-ing John

Yes. I've addressed this before elsewhere, I'll link you in pm, but bottom line is that for *some* people, this happens, and for some of those, it happens hard. I'm sure others will tell you it's all in your head, and maybe so - that's where you keep your brain after all. Bad news - it happened to me, and was debilitating, and lasted over a month. Good news - it was SO ridiculously bad that it made me laugh, and then I knew I had it. It's a mirage, an illusion, it isn't really you it just feels that way. You want a suggestion, here's all I got: dissociate. Watch yourself from a distance, and chuckle ruefully, knowing that it isn't real and it won't last, and when it's gone it will leave no trace of passing. You ever become self-aware in a nightmare, and realize that it's not real but you still have to see it through? Like that. *edit - can't send pms because your box is still full, but don't want to link here in case it violates site policy. Suggest search terms "Question about withdrawl: Emoltional symtoms" and "Depression and quitting" at some "other site".

That just broke my damn heart. :(

Sorry to hear about the tribulations, but that there is pretty great, I think.

I'm not so sure. I remember a sensation I used to think of as "lung hunger", and it felt like my wanting circuits had been rewired so that I actually like the sensation of cramming smoke into my chest, and maybe there was something to that. All I can tell you is that it went away, and pretty quick, and was replaced by a profound revulsion at the thought of hurting myself like that. Three days is not a very long time in the scheme of a quit, though it feels like it. Push through, and you'll see what I mean soon enough!

Yeah, unfortunately you will have to jones a little in the beginning, and from time to time. Just keep going and don't look back, you'll probably start to notice things improving pretty quickly.

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Cold turkey 13 Punching pillow 2 Chantix 2 Double clicking the mouse 1 Gum 1 Hard candy 1 Patch 1 Snus 1 betcha didn't see that comin

I won! I probably don't want to know anymore about it.

The only one I haven't said is because Canada uses metric. #2 is practically my mantra.