Well here it is 1:28 AM on the start of day 3. Restless leg going on. Very little to no sleep. Day 2 was much better but today not so good but not as bad as day 1.Anyway cravings so bad my throat gets tight. Mood swings get pretty intense at times. Tierd but can't sleep. Was reading some of my old posts, what did I do I ask myself ? I came so far but without getting into my personal life, I can say I caved. On the lighter side the only benefit from smoking and vaping is I don't smell like a rotten ashtray. That is the only benefit, withdraw is much more intense as are the cravings. You know the hell of this is I had no plans on quitting again. Went to doctor for check up, blood work and everything is great. Perfect numbers. Blood pressure was 154/96 ...not good. Well I do have whitecoat syndrome but who knows. Anyway came home looked at the vuse alto pod with a 2.4% took a hit and threw the thing in the garbage. Nearly dug back after it and thought, what the heck are you doing. I sit and think sometimes, is my life this boring that I have to tempt fate and start on nicotine again and quit again and walk threw the gates of hell again. Why ??? I don't get it. What is it about this drug that is so powerful and yet legal. Doesn't hinder your daily function or the ability to stay in shape. I'm not short of breath from vaping like I was with the ciggs. My smell is great,taste is great and I can breath. Talk about dancing with the devil. We just find more and alternate ways to keep the addiction going. Sorry for the rant, going to try and sleep a bit... Good luck on that. Godbless everyone in here and Godspeed to you all. Some support these two are..
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