Thank you all so much for your support and encouragement! I feel a shift in how I manage any urges to smoke which doesn't happen as often, nearly always when I'm out but I now feel stronger in shooting them down and they are very brief!
That's a big turning point for me as I struggled with managing it and found it so tiring. It took its damn time but I got there! Also there are no more tears when I know I can't smoke lol Everyone can now breathe a sigh of relief
It feels like it has been 4 years not 4 months but I'm not seeing that as a downside, it's just so odd to me!
Thank you again for supporting me!