OMG JB! What a tormenting thought! Don’t even think about this JB! It’s just not an option.
I have to admit I have never thought about what it would be like to smoke again...my reasons to smoke again were different... and it was not planned. It just happened. Having done it I can assure you it’s a huge disappointment...you literally loathe yourself. On any level it sucks. You disgrace yourself & everyone around you thinks you can’t do it. You eventually realize what you have done & you hate that you gave in. You feel sick with yourself for failing....not sick at the taste unfortunately, at least not after a few weeks. I wish it had made me feel sick. You can’t just have one. Next thing you know you’re up to 6 per day. And worst of all you start back at Square One of Withdrawal. It totally sucks & that “one” is not worth it...not ever. You know how hard it is to get rid of the nicotine in your body...personally I think it takes more than 3 days. All it takes is ONE! Believe me ?
I’m one week clean & counting. Enough self disappointment for me. I don’t want to be a Loser ever again. Yes, smoking thoughts & dreams are normal but do your best to banish those thoughts. They are not reality. They must happen just to test your resolve & wreak havoc in your mind. No prob in sharing them. Hope I answered your question....in my experience...lol!
Congratulations on your Freedom & keep it going. No need to learn the hard way like some of us ? Freedom is a choice even though it takes guts to get there. Freedom rocks...I’ve been there too! On my way to Freedom again. You’re doing great! Be proud! ?