I know you are right Cristobal. But I need to be in a state of mind where I can be STRONG. I need to wake up without feelings of impending doom & the realization I CAN do this. I know that everyone has their life stressors to deal with & many other obstacles to deal with but at some point they can overcome these issues enough to accomplish their Quit. With all due respect, you have no idea who I am or how I feel or how I react to stress....we are all different. You really have no idea what I have been going through. BUT, I am getting better & am working hard on finding new ways to cope without smoking and I WILL do this. It is on my mind every day. I DO thank you for your words. I need them to help make me stronger & more committed than ever to my Quit. I need the alternate ways to deal with extreme stress that I am working on actively. I don’t want to fail again...I want a sticky Quit that will be my new, ongoing life. I’m well aware that smoking to battle stress is a mirage...I’m getting stronger every day as I have been working hard to put chaos into enough order to survive & learn better ways to deal with stress. I read. I practice. It takes time. With that accomplished, I can concentrate on myself...for once do what’s best for ME. Thanks Cristobal. I hope to be proud of my sticky Quit very soon.