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Been cooking, sorry to be late. Nope.

I think we poisoned both our dogs. Our lab got a spinal tumor , horrible, took him to UGA, no help, got him back, walking with a towel holding his back legs ups. Lasted about a year. Then we had a GSH pointer, he got a sarcoma on a toe and it spread up his leg to his groin. Lots of chemo, awful, he lasted another two years but not well. Saying all this, I feel AWFUL. I killed my best friends and my babies. No more. K

Rosie, I find deep breathing helps, refusing to dwell on the crave, doing something, anything, else. And posting and reading here. I am only just getting brave enough to look at the cancer stuff, but oh boy, it is powerful stuff. K

Rosie, Everyone here promises that yes, it gets better. I am taking them on faith as it hasn't gotten better for me yet. Are you doing it CT or with nrt? I did nrt first and am only 10 days into total CT. Tough goings, but this place, and the people in it, are a huge help! K

So glad you got the baby back, so stressful!

Happiness to you! And masses of congratulations! Karen

Hey Karen, Remember why you quit? Remember the cold you got this past summer, that showed you you weren't invincible? Remember how you couldn't breathe and how scary that suffocating feeling was? Remember that your worst nightmare is claustrophobia and suffocation? Well, sweetie, that is where you are headed if you go back to smoking. We all will die, but let's not suffocate to death, okay? Just take a deep breath and ...one....day....at....a.....time. Love from, K

Happy Birthday, DD!

Me, too! The chill is great! Nope.

Nope, treats AND tricks, I hope!

Wow, that is wonderful DD! Congratulations!

Oh dear god, why does that look good? Taking deep breaths, one, two, three...

Happy Birthday, Fay!

I had weird, very tiring dreams of trying to smoke when I first quit and was using NRT. Never actually did smoke in the dreams, though! They lasted a few weeks.

Oh, definitely NOPE.

Oh thank you ALL for the words of wisdom and comfort. S, always so wise! Action, thanks for the encouragement! El B, Yes, attitude, positive attitude! Beacon, Exactly what I am feeling now. I know it is stupid, but it just comes over in a wave and then recedes. H, Yes, one day at a time.

Bat, Smiling right now! Sgt, Masquerading as my H, are you? But I DO understand what you mean :rolleyes: S, Thank you as always! Shaking myself off and moving forward....

Doreen, I will repeat to myself "one day at a time"! Sue, thank you for giving me an idea of the time frame for you and the suggestions! DF, Yes, I keep telling myself to be patient. You can't get over 42 years in a few weeks or months. Thank you all so much! K

El B, I hadn't thought of it as mourning, just a deep dark cloud. I WILL try to think of what I am gaining, not what I am "giving up". DD, I don't mind hearing it will be a while, just so long as I have an idea of how long to expect. I had some horrible stress at work, and that may be what set me off. I handled the stress at the time, but last night I got all wrapped around the axle about the problem, and so had some horrible craves. Thank you both for the words of encouragement! K

SueBeDoo said something that struck a chord with me: I stupidly feared I would never be happy or enjoy anything again, wouldn't enjoy going on holidays, wouldn't enjoy a night out, meal out, a cup of tea, thought I was going to be miserable forever if I became a non smoker, even at the start of my quit when I'd wake in the morning I would be thinking, what is the point in getting up if I can't smoke, life will suck bla bla bla This is so exactly how I feel. She says it gets better. Can S or others tell me how long it took to feel better? I was okay while taking the NRT lozenge, but once I went off that, it seems that each day is getting worse. Sorry to be whiny, but the depression is really bad. Apparently, it is more a female thing, as my H says he didn't have it at all. If I have a time estimate, I feel I can hang in there.... K

Congratulations, that is great!! K

Nope. Good morning all!

Nope for me as well. Good morning!

Congratulations. Your success gives me hope! K

Nope. Happy Monday morning, not.