Sparky

Under... think about it, it makes better sense if you're trying to rip paper off the roll with one hand. I'm so glad we are exploring impactful topics like this one, instead of smoking. ?

NOPE

NOPE

N.O.P.E. !

There's nowhere to go but up

I just had my last cigarette after my relapse, and figured to write down some "I will..." statements to help. Hopefully others will join in too, at whatever stage you're at - thinking of quitting, well into your quit, a relapser, a supporter. I will not smoke again. I will remember how empowering it was to quit years ago. I will always hold on to the pride I have felt for more than 3 years, and reclaim it. No one, and no cigarette, will deny me of it. I will not forget that this is a choice I need to make daily. I will not miss the nasty cigarette smell. I will focus on how great my body has felt after my first quit, and the great changes I made to my diet and working out. I will remember how deliriously happy my family and friends were when I quit. I will remember the shame I felt the other day when I was looked up and down by a stranger in the store, asking me in disgust "why are YOU a smoker??" I will cherish the support found on this forum. i will not forget or disown my original quit. I will think about all the great people in my life who have always knew me as a non-smoker. I will forever say out loud when I see a cigarette "Please. I'm better than that." I will protect my quit.

NOPE

I'm done. Lighter drowned, butts outside in the trash on the curb.

Tomorrow at 8 pm. (I know some disagree with picking a specific date/time)

What's love got to do with it?

Thanks everyone for the support and for sharing your experiences! The last time I bought a pack, the other day, another customer in line at the convenience store looked me up and down when I ordered a pack and asked me "Why are YOU a smoker??" A complete stranger. I told him, "Because I'm an idiot." I do believe it's one of many, many signs recently that I need to regain control, make a choice, and stop. This is ending.

You need to start pulling your own weight around here. ?

Someone has to knock some sense into this thread.

Thanks so much for this post. I understand exactly how you feel. I'm in a relapse after quitting 3 1/2 years ago, and aiming to quit. I have to. And it is different in many ways from my first quit, I agree. I need to be inspired as you are and make this quit IT.

Thanks everyone (and I do recognize some of you from QSMB, like johnny5 - at least your pic!). I'll be on here, and I'm so, so glad I found this forum. I'm going to plan on a new quit day. I need to re-educate myself on the dormancy of addiction. I know the couple of times since summer when I had that "one" after 3 1/2 years, thinking it's just the "one." And I tricked myself into thinking that it wouldn't do anything in the near future. I think of all the great things I accomplished post-quitting (bought my first house, found and started a great new job), and how do I get back to that power without cigarettes?

Hello - I read through some of the posts about relapsing, but figured to post a new message. In October, I relapsed with cigarettes. I quit cigarettes in March 2015 after smoking regularly (1 1/2 packs a day) for 19 years. During a very stressful week then (including the synagogue shooting massacre here in Pittsburgh), I bought a pack, and have been smoking since. It's weird. And idiotic. I can't figure out the triggers. I smoke only at home. I don't think about smoking during work, in the car, working out, socializing. Just at home. And I'm back to the same terrible habit of sneaking outside for a smoke (a few a day), including the wake-up cig, post-work cig, etc. I'm furious with myself. I worked so hard to get nicotine-free, and find myself smoking really for no reason. I' need help to stop it. If anyone has any advice or experienced something similar, let me know. (When I prepped for my qui in 2015, I was on quitsmokingmessageboard.com, and found invaluable support there. That website seems to be gone now.)