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About RoryPlog

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    The Great White North Eh!
  • Quit Date
    January 4, 2018

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  1. RoryPlog

    RoryPlog is 7 Months Smoke Free

    Well folks, again I appreciate your congratulations. A little late in replying. Summer, fishing, baby showers for my soon to be first grandbaby. Busy for all the right reasons and feeling lucky to have a little bit of extra time. The little app that I use to keep track of my quit says I'm coming up on 8 months and that I haven't smoked 6515 smokes. Those are pretty awesome numbers. I started playing guitar a little more, I have fished like crazy and I'm growing a beard. Feels all pretty good. Be at peace folks, and be happy in your quit. R
  2. Life is what happens when adults make plans. First and foremost I am happy to be riding a successful quit for 5 months and change. No harder, or easier than any of the rest of us, my quit has grown into something I am very proud of. Chapter 1 - Trials and Tribulations: I can’t quit – I can try to quit but I will probably fail – I quit, but please don’t smoke around me – Quitting is too hard To say that I understand why this quit is still going would be a lie. I have done the same, and different things this time around that don’t add up to success. I read, and wrote on the forums, I ate (and ate), I avoided situations that would encourage my habit. I struggle, sometimes through each minute, but I persist. Chapter 2 - The repugnant smell of a quit about to go bad (No Man’s Land): I should just go hang out outside with the smokers (otherwise I’m missing something fun) – I can drink, maybe just try one toke Dancing on the head of a pin, a slippery slope, I have slid into the lion’s den (the smoking pit). I have done the impossible and not indulged. I convince myself I am building a better me. The celebrations are further apart now. All of the support system is stretched thin. The great moments that were shared, one day, one month, just don't seem to have any joy. Chapter 3 – That’s the Ballgame: You can probably have just one - Here hold this - Don't you miss the smell - I can't believe you have lasted this long Innocently standing watching friends play a familiar game, in a familiar place, with familiar smells and WHAM she hands me a lit smoke to ‘hold’ while she goes up to bat. I can see the crossroads that Robert Johnson stood at. The wily old gent in his fancy suit, laughing while offering everything young Robert every thing he ever wished for. I laughed nervously and stomped the temptation to bits beneath my feet. Though I passed this test it gave me long pause for thought. I haven’t written the next chapter yet. The working title is – Six months is only half a year. My health is no better, and no worse. My weight has normalized. The demons running around in my head have been subdued lately. Summer time is always a flurry of activity. I have campfires to play guitar at, lakes to fish, and songs to write. I feel a bit like I have an open wound now and then. I pick at the scab of being an ex-smoker. When I do the wound underneath is still fresh, it still bleeds a little. It’s more of a dull ache when I get a craving, they are not hard to fight off. I still argue with myself now and again that I was a happier person as a smoker. I know this is foolish, but can’t help myself. You are all rockstars for continuing to support and help those of us still struggling. Peace R
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    RoryPlog is 5 Month's Smoke Free

    Lmao. I’m not sure I can play blackbird
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    RoryPlog is 5 Month's Smoke Free

    You all rock thank you so much. Five months, five months without a smoke. My little app thing said I hadn’t smoked 4,000 smokes not long ago. Four - thousand I’m almost not part of the non smoking culture now. I don’t get up and take a walk outside every hour just to see what I’m missing. I starting taking pictures, and video, and fishing more. I play guitar almost every day. Life has thrown a few giant left hooks at me in these five months. Hard, stare at yourself in the mirror kind of punches. Sometimes I catch myself looking over my shoulder to see if a craving is coming. My heart pounds, my legs twitch, there is a migraine in the back of my head that thankfully doesn’t seem to surface. My appetite is off, but my weight has remained consistent. Friends, without forgetting that every moment is a chance for me to fail, I feel like ‘I quit’ smoking. Let me just remark on the distinction, I don’t feel so much like I am quitting. I’m not obsessing about smoking. I just look at a smoker, and think I used to do that. I smell it and think that’s what smoking smells like. This for me is new territory. The fragile balance of ‘no mans land’. I’m sorry that I don’t come here often and try to help. For me lately, I’ve just not had my mind steered towards smoking and needing to fill the void. Funny when the old Q board died, I think my ability to go back through my posts through 10 years of quitting died with it. Along with that my compulsion and obsession were muted. I need you folks to be here please. It’s horribly selfish, but when I have a moment this is my haven. You all are what makes the chaos of quitting bearable, manageable and you bring just that little bit of hope that gets me through. Thank you you all again. Your in my thoughts. Peace Rory
  5. RoryPlog

    2018 Quitters Check In

    Doing good. Sorry I haven’t been around much, but want you all to know my quit, and you folks mean a lot to me. Keep The Quit peace R
  6. RoryPlog

    Roopy is 3 Months Quit Today!!

    Congrats Roopy
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    RoryPlog is 4 Months Quit Today!!

    Feeling the love. Thank you all very much. I am doing really well. The moments of crave are farther apart, sometimes days. I am not obsessing like previous attempts. My health is slowly improving. I have been checked head to toe, stress tested, arteries ultrasounded. I have some blockage, but as long as I stay off the smokes my doctors have told me I won’t have to take pills or have any repairs done for the near future. This is huge news. I sadly will admit, since I quit I felt my health sliding, my energy has disappeared, I was afraid that my quit was too late. I know I smoked too long. I am happy that for the time being my body will begin to mend and the smoking seems to be fading into a nasty memory. Your constant support is huge, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Rory
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    RoryPlog is 3 Months Quit Today!!

    Thank all for your continued support. Still got this. NOPE R
  9. RoryPlog

    RoryPlog is 3 Months Quit Today!!

    Thank you all so much. Wow, three months. I just might survive this after all :-)
  10. RoryPlog

    Spring is almost here

    15-20 cm of snow promised for tomorrow. So much for spring. Day 88 today. No results yet (which I hope is good news) but feeling ok. Mostly, I feel like I haven’t smoked through a ton of misery and for that I’m thankful. A long tricky road this quitting. A couple folks around me ‘fell off the wagon’ lately. I had a little argument with myself this weekend that maybe they were doing the right thing. I mean, I can see from an outside perspective that my quit might be getting ‘a little old’. Dont panic, I’m just having a little pity party. The lido deck seems like a lifetime away. The little victories don’t have quite as much uhhhmph. On a funny note, I vaped some pot on the weekend. This isn’t a normal thing for me (neither vaping or getting stoned). It made me want a smoke for a short time. Then made me mad that I wanted a smoke. Then made me wonder if vaping pot was actually cheating my quit. All in all not a great experience, but it did make me laugh at myself which I think I need lately. Reafing back, it looks like I needed a little company tonight. Thanks all for being there. R
  11. RoryPlog

    Found you again!

    Glad you found us
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    Weaning off Champix

    Good job Roopy. I quit Champix cold turkey when the weekend the old board went down. I felt a little loopy (more than usual) for three or four days. I also remember a couple (like two) cravings that seemed a little out of the ordinary. Aside from that it was all good. R
  13. Two and a half months. I’m pretty proud of myself. I’m sitting in a Coffee Shop parking lot doing some reflecting. I’ve just come from the Heart Clinic where I was directed after I had a heart ‘event’ a week ago. Pressure on the chest, sweating, anxiety. So far all is good. A bunch of tests, and I’m wearing a monitor for a couple days, then all the bright folks will take a guess at what’s going on. My guess, i smoked too long and did some damage to my heart/lungs. Thirty four years of smoking comes at a cost. Like all of us, i am under tremendous life pressures, and certainly this adds to the likelihood that my health will suffer. I suppose if I can impart any message here it’s this, keep the quit and get checked out by your doctor if something seems odd. Peace R
  14. RoryPlog

    Monday 19 March 2018

    Still nope

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