Pilgrim, you cannot buy or bum them from people you know! You have to stop that!!! I know it's not easy, we all do, but you have to make up your mind. No more buying/grubbing off of friends!! Every time you go back, you are gonna have to deal with the withdrawal.😬 We can all give you advice and support, but the quitting has to come from you. I know how it is in the early days of quitting, it's horrible, but once you get over the hurdles in the beginning, it gets easier. Have you tried the patch or the gum? Some people on here have used that and it helped them. When you get an urge, do something else besides smoking!! You can do this!!!