This is a tried and tested idea I had a while back.
take a moment to write yourself a response to your own SOS.
no one knows you like you know yourself, and if you do post an SOS we can show you your own words, something that you will really listen to.
do it now while you are strong, as we know that when we are weak we can struggle to fight and to find the fight within ourselves.
I'll get this started..
Jonny, what ever is going on that has thrown you into this confusion, please stop and reflect on your achievements and restore that belief in yourself.
You know that you are free and that you have always sought and fought for that freedom, and that your freedom or imprisonment are simply states of mind that you control.