Wishing you the best but as you know "luck" has nothing to do with it. YOU are the deciding factor in your quit and stay quit. It's easy to smoke that first one and fall quickly back into the full fledged nicotine addiction trap again as many of us can attest. I was one of those that found it hard to get back on the train and each attempt seemed to become harder and harder. I knew I needed something to switch on in my brain to stop the white knuckling and change my focus into my free choice of never going back to smoking. Being quit for 5 or 10 years and still thinking about wanting to smoke when seeing others smoke was not the future I wanted for myself. I wanted to feel gratitude and achieve peace in my smobriety. I found the switch by reading and educating myself about nicotine addiction (the why, how, and what I could do to help myself) and then reading some more. Each time I read I took away a few words or thoughts that spoke to me and added them to my pile of "never wanting a smoke" and "never going back". Find your switch. Then it really doesn't matter how long it's been since we last smoked. All that matters is that it no longer is a want or option to anything in our life. We are then free. You can do it too. Pledge daily (you don't break promises to yourself do you?). Post an SOS as needed and as often as you need to the community for help. Nobody says you have to do it alone. Use the community. "Best Wishes".