April 19, 201412 yr well it's almost six months...and I was thinking the other day about this whole thing so far----if I can say one thing in total about the experience from November first up until now is that... damn what a f****** bore?? If someone asked me to sum it all up so far in one word it would be "boring" ...I mean s*** for years....and I mean YEARS I had this awesomely dramatic story all built up in my head. You don't even know... it was full of excitement...agony...pain...tears...unbearableness... I mean some real downright nasty sh**. And I think I must say I am slightly disappointed.... and by slightly I mean very. I guess it's true...we really do make it out to be worse than what it actually ends up being. I was thinking there would be a little more fighting myself you know? A little more inner dialogue like "I can't take this I'm going to get cigarettes" "yes you can suck it up you can do it" "no I really cant stand it anymore I have to have one" "shut the f*** up rachael you're not having a cigarette" "no you shut the f*** up im going to go bum one from someone...this is ridiculous...and don't talk to me like that you nasty little #$%#$%#$" it was more like meh...this (insert sh*** situation) sucks... I used to have a cigarette when stuff like this happened... I guess i don't anymore? hmmm okay then. guess I'll just wait a little bit... nope nevermind...feeling passed. if anything it's been a huge letdown... and if I knew it was going to be such a snoozefest I would have given it up long ago. guess i'll have to catch the drama on some reality show cause I haven't gotten what I thought I was entitled to when I quit... ;)
April 19, 201412 yr Well, let me see if I can help!! First of all the blue angels just did a flyover for you... followed by fireworks.. dancing elephants.. and a Marching Band! did I forget, anything? Love you, Rachael!!
April 19, 201412 yr Annoying is my new word for this quit. Like the sound of a tv droning through cheap apartment walls punctuated by telemarketers.
April 19, 201412 yr Author Easy Peasy, right? ;) exactly.... very much so ...almost annoyingly so :) I wanted a little fight
April 19, 201412 yr Author lol nancy I meant I thought that I thought it would be harder... more of an inner fight against wanting to give up and have cigarettes...and ive been waiting and waiting and waiting and Im thinking it just hasnt come and isnt going to.. lol it was kind of a joke
April 19, 201412 yr It kinda really makes The Sarge angry with himself that he put it off - waited 27 years ... for this? This? Easy Peasy
April 19, 201412 yr Author It kinda really makes The Sarge angry with himself that he put it off - waited 27 years ... for this? This? Easy Peasy I know...I know... the struggle is real people
April 19, 201412 yr Lol pmsl love it, deadly post misses;) and soooooooo true.. Your Best off heading to a pub or nightclub to get the fight you need!!!
April 19, 201412 yr Good to hear that Rachael, You can use you time to keep helping others and keep playing it forward! Nice job on the quit and the post!
April 19, 201412 yr I feel the same way. I don't have much to say about my quit, it's downright boring! :D
April 19, 201412 yr I like it...zzzzzz You had all the excitement and danger you ever needed before you quit. You could take on some exciting things now with less risk.
April 19, 201412 yr It is boring because smoking is no longer the center of your world. Perhaps your subconscious is saying you are really done with smoking and is making room for better experiences?
April 19, 201412 yr :) Lovely post Rachel. It deserves bumped from time to time so a newbie will see it......and have some hope that it's not as big and scary as our mind likes to tell us.
April 19, 201412 yr loving this Rachael, so glad as The Sarge said it was Easy Peasy (lemon squezy) for you :D
April 20, 201412 yr I am so glad that this is your sticky quit. Be proud of yourself for having an easy quit. You did it!! :)
April 20, 201412 yr Nice Rachael! Excellent work. My quit has had its moments..but overall I'm pleased that it hasn't been too tough!
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