Devil Doll

This is where you drop the mic and walk away. Excellent post Colleen.

-19 Doing ok! Finish them!! :D

-17 How are you Petra? :D

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1 Yes there is! It is in the off the record forum Lucy. :)

Double digits! Congratulations on your fabulous 10 Armed!!!

2 Poor mammy she went straight to the swear thread!

How are your doing today Iulia? :D

My friend is a Reiki practitioner and teacher. I wish I lived in New Jersey so that she could teach me.

-3 follow mine I am doing the math as they mess with us.

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Chicks win.... again! Nice try bakon... we'll take that as a ZERO soooo -1

-19 I can't use big words or Chrispy will report me :(

-19 Yay New Years Quitters!

-18 Absolutely! :)

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These are the posts that I was really looking forward to coming from you. Chrysalis I truly am so happy that you joined this board. I, too fear the "constant craving". The beginning of my quit was rough as well. It eases up and "junkie thinking" does creep in even now 7 months in. What I do is take deep breaths and question myself. I know that we think that we enjoyed smoking but toward the end, before I quit, I wasn't enjoying them and I realized it. I was smoking because I had to not because I wanted to. So now I realize that sense of enjoyment, relaxation, and "ahhhhh" is all false. We (our addiction) thinks it is there but when we really think back to when we were smokers it isn't there. (I hope that makes sense). I think back to my first ever cigarette... and any subsequent *first* cigarette (after a hospital stay or what not) and the feeling of how physically sick it made me. No release, no good feeling... dizzy, and nauseated is always how I felt. Once I smoked that first one though the receptors were woken back up and the constant withdrawal begins again. Why would I want to throw away xx amount of months free for something that makes feel sick? I also think about all of my accomplishments since I have quit. I can run, I can work out, I am proud of myself, my kids are proud of me, my new internet family celebrates me every month. I don't want to throw any of that away, not for a freakin' cigarette. These are some of the things that I think about when I feel that I am romancing it. It does help me to just take a minute and think.

-12 no no mammy...play! Just watch out for the sticks... they cheat!

-9 Yay Doreen!