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@Lilly Edited the post It was a mistake

Yes Martian5 , Heating up with smoke after all these months of strong quit is very wrong . I wont smoke even on the day of my graduation

I really should eat some sandwiches

Keep fighting . In my melodramatic fight with cigarettes .There was only one thing that have helped me to stay away from this addiction . It was the 4mg strong nicotine gums . If on any given day i have to choose between a cigarette and a gum , i would chose this 4mg gum . Also one simple rule too . No matter how melodramatic this addiction looks like . I am not going out to buy cigarette's for me .

Thanks for the reply everyone

Thanks a lot for the reply reciprocity I have no idea how i managed to keep my quit this much long . The cravings was always there . I only followed a simple rule . Do not buy cigarettes It worked

I had some cravings during these times , especially in the dull evenings . But i never bought cigarettes . And i am never planning to do it too . Anyway made it to 5 months mark without smoking . I am on my last semester of the degree course too . In the next 3 or 4 months the course ends too . So i am feeling a lot of relief and excitement

Thanks Lilly , If everything will work as planned , i can start thinking about doing Post Graduation in business studies and accounting . I would like to see that happen , but not sure if it is going to work that way . I have wasted too much time already . Anyway i have started to think positively about life .

Thanks jillar , johnny5

@reciprocity , Thanks a lot for the reply

@Linda Thanks for the reply . I have done Bsc computer science before , but after 3 years in the college and all i lost 2 math related subjects and i was never able to complete that lost subjects . I joined this course 7 years after that . Meanwhile i was working .Small jobs mostly . Anyway thank god , i am slowly slowly completing this course .

Wow , here it is . After waiting for 1 and a half month , It arrives . Finally feeling happy . Now i can peacefully focus on the 6th semester which is the last semester .

@Lilly Thanks

@Lilly , Thanks for the reply @reciprocity , Since its a distance education thing i don't get to see the students until i reach the exam centers for examination .But there are people arriving there doing different courses coming there for exams . I only have this one person on phone who i can talk to about the course .Even she is waiting for the results . Anyway i only have 4 more months to finish the entire course . Yes , no smoking at all .

Thanks for the reply Linda , I love Christianity , It makes so much more sense than the Islamic religion Thanks

Congrats Lilly , I hope your overall health has improved a lot .

Two weeks have gone after this post and they still have not declared the result in the website .Great Feeling stressed out again . My last semester books to learn has arrived And i am still waiting for my 5th semester results declaration . This is really annoying , Lol Anyway , I am still not going out and buying cigarettes .

Hello Juan . Welcome back . I like your post because we have lots of things in common . I have depression too . I used to smoke to kill time too . But i threw it away because of health related concerns . I still feel like smoking not because of the cravings but because i don't have anything else interesting to do . And all the interesting things in the world requires a lot of money , which i don't have too much either . I am going through a time of recession , There will be a time of recovery and expansion too , Lol Anyway Everyone has depression because of too much boredom i guess . Try to find some activities you might find interesting to kill that boredom .

Avatar Avengers Star wars I was so busy that i actually forgot to watch them

I really love a cigarette right now , But i am not going out and buying it . Health concerns are the only reason .

Thanks Linda , I don't have any strong cravings these days . I am not using Nicotine gums too . I am still waiting for my results , This waiting for too much time is making me a bit restless . Other than that i am doing alright . As soon as i finish this BBA degree of mine , I have plans to do MBA in Finance . Going after a post graduation degree at 33 with a kid around is a bit weird , Lol . That can only happen if i can find a better job soon But i like to see that happen too .

Thanks Lilly

@Linda , Sorry about the changes , I feel more comfortable with an Indian theme . This is going to be permanent This is supposed to represent the average Indian Women and her home atmosphere . I like this pic even though i am not a women , Lol