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Congratulations on 7 months Christa. You are getting so close to that lido deck now. Loved reading your update too.

Welcome to the forum DizzyD and congratulations on 8 days quit. Looking forward to sharing this journey with you 😀

Not One Puff on my first day quit ♥️

Thank you everyone for your replies. I did hit the self destruct button like I always do and after being up for an hour I smoked. I didn't SOS because I knew nobody was going to stop me and I didn't want to go through the motions and waste everyone's time. Do you know what breaks my heart right now? It's not smoking, it's not that I'm a complete failure - it's you people. I'm throwing away quit after quit and you all care more about me than I do about myself. I'll be honest and say I thought Jo, Doreen and Reci had completely washed their hands of me and my quits. When I saw all your names I couldn't help but cry. Reci I have already received some news about my lungs. Nothing is confirmed at this stage it is just what my Doctor thinks could be wrong. They want to wait six weeks before they do the tests so my chest is recovered from this illness. So this morning after reading all your messages I went to see a Quit Smoking Counsellor. She wants me to use patches for the full 12 week course as she thinks this will appeal to my OCD. Following programmes is something I usually flourish with and I like to see them through. So I will be back when I start this on Wednesday which is No Smoking Day in the UK. Again picking a special day also appeals to my OCD 🙄🙄 Thank you again. You have no idea how much you all make a difference to other peoples lives x

@Rixcz There are a couple of things that no longer work for me. If I click mark site as read the box comes up but there is no writing so no ok box If I try to attach an existing image I can tick it but the box doesn't show saying attach 1 image.

What a superstar - big congratulations X

Ahhh good idea 😀

I don't get why I struggle so much to stay quit. I WANT to be a non smoker, I WANT to be happy I've quit and I WANT more than anything to have a lido deck party. So why when I want it so much do I always go back. Even now I know it's not if I go back it's when I go back. I know that isn't what anyone on a quit smoking site wants to hear but I'm just being honest. Cigarettes always win in my life.

I was testing to see if I could post when the site was down?

You've got egg on your face

I'm listening to Nina Simone - just sung Mr Bojangles and now I've got My Baby Just Cares For me. I have always adored her

Ahhh looks like life is looking up for you. Congratulations on two months 😀

This is pretty much why I get so heated about drugs taking second place to cigarettes ☹️ I'm not even going to pretend I understand what you have been through as a family. One of my children dabbled with drugs for many years but thankfully never heroin. I pray that one day you all find peace and your son finds his way back x x

Nobody said it's healthy.

I'm a big fan of his later stuff. I love My Boy, My Way, American Trilogy and Suspicious Minds.

Gosh that's like a cross examination 😀 I'm still quit but definitely not confident. I've been in bed since I quit and only got up today. Haven't had to deal with triggers/craves yet. Not using NRT yet but do have a pack of lozenges on standby.

When I said with cigarettes you only kill yourself, I meant you don't have 40 cigarettes one night and go and murder someone.

Congratulations Boo and hope you celebrate in style X

Massive congratulations. You really are doing well and I'm really happy for you. I'm really glad you've joined the train. You're a big asset around here and I love having you around x

Totally agree. At least with cigarettes you only kill yourself. The amount of times I hear stories of people being murdered while the person was high on drugs and alcohol angers me.

At least it will be cooler for you Jo - you might get some sleep. This is my favourite time of year. It's not too cold and all the spring flowers are coming through.

Sorry, not sure what I did there

I was waiting for Jo to do one of her write ups but she didn't do one today ☹️

This is why I say it is different here. Because we are regulated diacetyl isn't even allowed.

Thanks 😀