Ugh heatherdianne, I so remember feeling just like you do and yes, it is exhausting. But it won't always be like this. You've got great days ahead, you just have to hang tight and get past these miserable ones first. On days like you're having now I used my JAC (jillars air cigarette). I just pretended I was holding a cigarette in my fingers and then went through the motions of "smoking" it. It worked great at tricking my mum nd into thinking it was getting the real thing. I also played a lot of games and did things I normally wouldn't smoke doing.
You are doing great, so hang in there. Things will get so much better, xoxo