Thank you for your comments everyone as it does make one feel welcome. And wow, what a morning after? Woke up without power as storms are moving through WI and finally getting back on track. However, more storms coming through this weekend with plenty of snow in the forecast.
Yes, I know I relapsed but am looking at it in a good way and hope my thoughts may be helpful to others? First and foremost, yes, I smoked a half a feeder and was only a few solid puffs and was gone (As well my balance and stomach. Did I ever feel sick). And not a whole smoke or even going down the deep path and buying a pack.
This was all driven by alcohol and sadness. Speaking of alcohol, when the new year rolled around I decided to go the Dry January route starting on New Years Eve. Rolling along, on 1/6 I said the cigarettes need to go as well. That said, this is the first I've integrated alcohol without smoking on (I thought I may have an issue without smoking and drinking coffee in the morning but that doesn't seem to be the case, luckily) Then throwing myself in a situation where I am thinking of old times (which are many) with my brother and having plenty to drink. Certainly an ask for disaster to a recent X-smoker. Nine weeks may seem like a very long time as you start your quit but really it is not long at all. When I've quit for an entire year and can start asking to lower my life insurance premiums will I then call myself an X-smoker. Until then, I simply am working on quitting but will give myself plenty of praise along the way. As we all know this is no easy task, takes much will power and HEY, let's not let that little cigarette run us.
The next time I am in this situation (though going back to Dry whatever month for awhile :))? I will remember how stoned, dizzy and sick I felt after taking just a few long hard puffs.
