You might now follow... that's oke. I'm going back to my home where also my ex bf lives. If I start running from all nutcake men I will be scared the rest of my life and running the rest of my life. I will not be or stay the victim. Period. We'll have a GOOD talk about boundaries with the 'socios'. If he plays trics with me I make sure I have ******* prove ;)

What else is new oh yeah some may have seen it :P I'm a redhead now VERY RED! and have a Industrial and labret piercing... enough piercing now :P Oh going to a Hillsong church today, if they don't accept me the way I am now I'm leaving caz I KNOW I am stronger then ever and yes I believe but NO I'm not ordinairy and don't expect me to be :P

Oh my blatter infection has been treaded but I still have to make an echo of my abdomen :(

Hey Evelyn. It's been a while since you've posted anything. Are you ok?

Yes, as some notice. I smoked. I can't keep it all together and can't fight the addiction so I vape. i am only telling because I you're my friends. You wanna call me a window licker; go ahead walk one mile in my shoes and you go insane... I decided to rather choose for a incidental smoke, with vaping, then self harm. I've gone through 3 sui attempts and I do NOT need anyone patting me on the back or feel sorry for me... I just need to get out of my shit. get it together, So I don't care if you judge me at least I'm honest.
Call me shit, or window licker.... I've had worse. RIGHT NOW I'm wobbly standing on my feet, home and I need  space and time. I can't fight demons who split me up. Never start a 2 front war :) so for now. That's it.
I'm crying becaus I know you will be disappointed. I've gone through a lot lately and process a memory right now as we spek.
I wanna be honest just don't gimme the shit I can do it blah bla, yeah that was when I OD'd and so sui I tried to hang myself.... i need to find myself, i've battled whole year. NO - I am not superwoman. My therapist has been shocked in what a bad state I was.. I'm supposed to only receive meds twice a week etc. 
I want to be friends, I do NOT plan on quiting, but if you let me I'll stic around and come back when I'm stronger....

Eve..sweetheart...we are all human...

All I want and have ever wanted..is for you to be content with your life...

I'm sorry your going through this..

Please stay close...people here do care...

You have friends here...never feel alone....

Sending all my love..and strong vibes...

Xxxxxx

but if you let me I'll stic around and come back when I'm stronger....

You should do that.  Because you will be.

And how does smoking help?

Ps took your window away. it was pretty dirty

Next week is a year since my sister's suicide, it's very hard for me to advise you on the no smoking at this point but if you are going to vape can you do it without nicotine?

 

It's not about being superwoman or strength it's about reaching out and getting the right help and support and taking it day by day

 

Xx

I can't begin to imagine your struggles.  My thoughts go out to you and hope you will ditch smokes again very soon.   

... go ahead walk one mile in my shoes and you go insane...

 

... I've gone through a lot lately ...

 

{<Long list of pointless rationalizations>}

 

 

 

 

 

 

Blah ... blah ... blah ...

 

<rolls eyes>

 

Everybody's got a damned excuse.

 

 

 

 

Easy Peasy

all this makes me think about what matters.

and here I am on your thread because You ******* matter.

I don't care if you smoke.

I give a shit because you matter to me but, there is no reason to consider me,

I am nothing, nobody really.

Hoping a smile finds your eyes and lips every now and then.

What else is there, bebe ?

I ******* hate bla replies. ******* it. Why do i bother replying dont ever judge me.

Thanks for the stab in the back.. mister sgt. Anders porky go link you #####