Spent that day with my friend yesterday who is sick. It was a hard evening when I got home last night. Brought back memories that try to put out of my mind. I really wanted to smoke and was very anxious. Same today. But I'm not!!! Trying to figure out other ways to handle that kind of stress which smoking was always my go to. I know that's crazy. Just venting about it helps. Life on lives term I know are not always pleasant things. I just know I need Other ways to deal with them. But sad and stressed at the same time are not a good combo for me,as I write this in tears I tell myself this to shall pass!!!

It is crazy that we all spent so much time "comforting" ourselves by putting deadly poisons into our bodies. Vent away. It helps to have a place and people like this to do so. Because we get it. Wish I could wave a magic wand for you Linda. 

@Diane Thanks it does help to know people care and understand

Yes, it will pass Linda and we are your safe place to come talk about it. The best thing you can do for your friend is live your healthiest life, xoxo

@jillar I know it is and  I know it will pass.But it is hard, I watched my sisters go through this and my husband who I loved dearly at only 55. So I'm having a little pity party tonight.

@jillar I just feel like a broken record playing the same song over and over. Think it time for a soaking in a hot tub with a glass of wine with some lavender candles  thanks for listening

You not a broken record. It is your journey right now. Please do treat yourself well tonight and with kindness. 

That sounds like a good plan @Linda, xoxo

My thoughts will be with you Linda. Let those tears flo’ til the rains no mo’. 🙏🏻

Thank you all for caring, you all are my family that I picked!!!! Hope I can do that for all of you! 🤗🤗❤

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So sorry you are having such a tough day, Linda. Life just sucks, sometimes. I can certainly identify with your anxiety, and when you add depression to that cocktail, it’s a bear!  I have been there. Reaching out is always a good plan. A glass of wine and hot bath sounds like a marvelous idea. Just remember that alcohol is a depressant, and don’t get carried away. As with most things in life, moderation is the key. 😊❤️
 

KAT

@Katgirl  I know wine is not a good combo so I will limit that to one glass. Thanks for the kind words

Hot bath,wine and candles was amazing thank you all again

Trying to make today a good day!!!!

12 minutes ago, Linda said:

Trying to make today a good day!!!!

You have that right Linda.  Never feel like you are alone in this fight.  We are here for you!