40 minutes ago, hesteralumni23 said:

Im sorry. I need to get off this board, I totally don’t belong here and i am scared that describing what im going through and what ive decided will throw you guys off your own journeys. but thank you to everyone for your support. ill come back if its right for me but its not right for me right now

 

I love you all soooo much and im going into therapy for my childhood shit and going to be okay on that

 

 

 

I am so happy to hear you are going into therapy,  I think this will help you immensely !

You needn't allow your demons to rule or determine your life

and I am so proud of you that you are going to face them head on.

You Go Girl !

Come back to us when you are ready to quit smoking and come back soon, we will cheer you on, for sure.

S

Hey hesteralumni23,

 

Smoking masks underlying issues that surface when we quit.  A lot of us have had to face it and eventually we do learn to do without the crutch.

 

Hope things work out for you.  

 

You have the right idea and I think you'll succeed.  Smoking was the hardest thing for me to quit and it took me many attempts.  You will likely do it in less. 

Changing yourself is always the most difficult thing a person can do.  To become something new requires some part of you to die.

 

You can't become a non-smoker without annihilating the identity of you as a smoker.   

 

You want it both ways.  To be a non-smoker and occasionally going back to being a smoker, however briefly.

 

It looks to me a hi-wire act fraught with tension as you struggle to maintain a duality over an abyss of remorse and addiction. 

 

Focus on what you want to be and move forward with it.  The rest is a distraction that will rob you of your dreams.

 

 

@hesteralumni23 going into therapy for your childhood trauma is one of the best things you can do at this stage. You should be really proud of yourself for taking this step. 

We can't help you. 
No one can. 
Only you can help you. 
When you know this, you will be quit for good. 
Sarge wonders if you will ever know this. 

EZPZ