Hi Robin! Congrats on four days! That’s a big deal, any amount of time not smoking is a big deal. I’m a newbie too, and also quit bc of breathing problems. My oxygen would go low, and I would go to the hospital bc it felt like I couldn’t breathe. I knew I had to quit too even though I felt like I wasn’t ready. I also felt like Jillar that others “got to smoke” but for lengths of time, like Im 38, I only got to smoke for 20 yrs (lol wackadoodle). But I also had some breathing and oxygen issues when I first quit…it came and went for abt a month and now I’m totally good w breathing. I also read Allen Carr for years (lol yes literally years) and while it’s great info, it wasn’t a “magic pill” that made me instantly want to quit. It has helped others here though! I also totally felt what you described too the grief, losing a best friend, I would cry sobbing guttural sobs and also get so so angry, had some depression which I never felt before where I couldn’t even leave my couch.
It does totally get better…and I’m still a newbie at 3 months. Best of luck to you gf you’re doing awesome ❤️