Evelyn

Girl you can try to be peace and cake, but sometimes you need to be angry; THAT is healing too :) You are strong, loving but that doesn't make you a cuddle robot (to explain it xtremely) so be angry write a little talk to your sister if you angry at her... oh pm coming your way ;)

yeah, that I got.

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Yawdropping :D you rock girl! Massive congratulations

Hey, have you tried meditation, visualisation breathing out smoke inhaling healthy air? NOPE for me today just for today no matter what

This one I seem to respond better :) just feel a sore throat, did chakra work and until yet forgot to open my throat chakra... feels like a blister :( keepin an eye close

And off note I can be a bitch biting when feeling cornered. Am not proud of the bitch part :( on the other hand that hard core inside has know kept me smokefree again. When I got something in mind---i go after it.

I am trying. No it's not about attention seeking and NO smoking has never done anything. I am learning withups and downs. I think the person I was most angry at was myself. You smacked me in he face 'wake up' which of course gave me the self guilt trip which Allen Carr's talked about so often. I do learn Bakon. I don't win a yeeh first price but I try very hard on many scales. 'Yelling at me when I'm in my shell will only make me yell back.' Bad, nasty habit. I sneaked around those few days, I would have come back. MY fault is for leaving too soon and not returning when it creeped up in my neck, the cravings. So I learned a lot. I'm sorry I REALLY for yelling at YOU instead of my craving yelling NOPE.

The one I got yesterday, got me freaking out full blown panick attack; sme AB have that side affect with me, so I rather choose to try to get rid of it naturally, calling my housedoc in one hour and a half

NOPE Just for today No matter what

... After 6 days of antibiotics I need a new antibiotics since my urinary infection (how do you call that) as the wrong one... Great so no retouching my tattoo the upcoming week yawn this getting boring my 3th antibiotics for twice the same infection Do men get that ever? Is it a women's thingy? No I'm not my guinea pig.

Wouldn't have thought any wise

You are right. You push my buttons which makes me feel cornered. I know you care... I just at That Moment believe you do not see my psychiatric pain. Which is a real thing. You think I believe so it's not true or that I can get thru all. Well. Again I am not superwoman porky why do you think so? The EXCUSES are always wrong. But a little understanding for my hurt.... Is what I ask. I am truly sorry and cannot be more honest then this. Kick my ass if needed... But please understand I am recovering with ptssd severely and depression I jumped back on without a doubt. Just TRY to understand why I struggle porky and why I fire up. I'm sorry. This is what's behind it.

I hate my phones autocorrect

ROFL

NOPE Just for today No matter what

Haven't seen you much around. Hope I didn't chase you away, ok? And the misses? *little worried*

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Even after 16 months I relapsed, recognise your craving; shout NOPE, do not start negotiating with your cravings.. My 50 ct.

Welcome back

For the boys :P

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Congratulations :D you are going good keep on going

NOPE just for today No matter what