Kris

Dear Katgirl, I did not catch before how short a time you had been working on your quit. Your post to me were so helpful, I assumed you had quite a long time ago. I feel bad that I did not see this sooner. I to am very anxious by nature. I am only at 11 days and am really struggling. My doctor had discussed this with me long ago saying smoking made my blood pressure go up and made me more anxious...I did not believe it but it makes sense. I am awake early today after waking from a nightmare only to have a panic attack. K

Okay guys, you have me totally confused now. I know what you mean, kinda. I now know what the phrase watching the tail means, I thought if might be something weird and I was not about to ask. I was concerned about putting things in the wrong place but did not realize that someone had to go fix it I also know what one of the funny guys meant by "I don't need no stinking badges" Yes, I know that there is some kind of quote thing.....one I still have learn. I won't start a new thread but I did go for a walk to deliver the bread I made today. Wait for it....the neighbors were not home so I have 2 loafs of fresh, tasty English Muffin Bread, just what I need hanging around. K

Love that Mac23! Those sick kids really pass around the germs. Cbdave, How did you get that picture of my husband? I thought he might have cheated and now I have the proof LOL K

guess who can't sleep, oh how I hate this. K

It has been a busy day, reading, learning., posting. I am worn out. Don't have the energy you young tech people do LOL. I managed to get a lot of things done in the house today. Just a warning to us newbies, our concentration is off. I have learned I should not multi-task right now, almost set the darn kitchen on fire today, left a pan on the cooktop, got it just in time. Goodnight All K

Linda, First time looking at your thread. You could have a second career as a motivational speaker (typist) So glad to have positive input while I fight. K was trying to respond to your last post but I think I somehow sent this again. I am not ever going to be a tech person K

love your location, never learned to bowl, but loved the atmosphere they provide. Thanks for your reply. I really feel goofy that I count the minutes until I can sleep. Seems like the only place I can get a break from the emotions I'm dealing with right now. K

Hi Robbie, I am new also. I am at ten days and I am proud of myself. I think I am a lot like you with the depression, anxiety, the anger the tears, the insomnia and for me some down right terror.. I think we are just overwhelmed right now with these things because we are doing this. I had to quit because of health issues that have come up that I caused. I knew all this time I was hurting myself by smoking. I just lied and lied to myself that if would not happen to me. Guess what, if happened to me. I am determined now. I can do this. I also have no support, but we have found these wonderful people and can count on them to help us. I have found myself on a rollercoaster ride these last 10 days. It is kind that have the upside down loops and make you sick at your stomach. These people are riding it with me, comfort me when I struggle and cheer me on when I have felt better to keep me going forward. Just get everything out of the house that has to do with smoking. Check your car, clean the ashtray, fill it with hard candy. I have not gone in to a store that has cigarettes to avoid temptation. I order my groceries online and just pick them up. I am lucky that I am retired so I don't that extra stress. If I don't sleep well I can take a nap. I try to avoid that because I don't sleep well at night if I nap. I have found it is helping to have a schedule, time to get up and time for bed. Right now I am driven to want to eat so I have even set a time for meals. YOU CAN DO THIS, SO CAN I, WE JUST HAVE TO RIDE THE RIDE UNTIL ITS DONE! K

I am not sure where this post should go on the board. It is early evening here. I am relieved at this point in the day. I know it will be getting dark soon. It sounds weird but just having night fall relaxes me. I know I am almost thru another day, I made it again thank God! I can go to bed soon. I was like this even before I started this whole process. I love winter because of dark and the cold. To me it's the best, you can snuggle up, good book and cup of hot tea. Making big pots of homemade soups. Yes indeed, wish I had started in the winter time. I think it would have been easier for me. At least I know I will have a great fall and winter. Now that I am older I just can't handle the summer heat. Thanks for listening K

Well you did ask for it. LOL K

If you have quite a handle there. Can I call you D2? No I am not opposed to violence, I in fact attacked a stick of butter earlier this week. Just squeezed and squeezed until if has all over my hand and the counter. I have also tangled with yard tools and appliances. I get very unhappy if things don't work like they should of just stop working. I think the worst was the old vacuums that you had to change belts or when I new bag would not go in right. I will assume you have removed your trigger from your life, so you won two battles, the smoking and the trigger. K

Just hate it when you go the fridge and find out your cucumber is really a zucchini in disguise. My poor salad will have to do without. My steak is at least who he says he is. I think these two things will distract me for awhile. Since I will not be smoking anymore, I need to know what you have for dinner so I can expand my horizons. Hard to cook for just one. K

New questions. I have been notified that I am now an enthusiast (I think I just talk too much) I an not enthusiastic about this at all but I am very proud that I am doing it. I also see that I have won the day (again, I talk too much). Never put a drink and a cigarette in my hand or you will live to regret it. I have not had this much interaction with anyone in years and it has renewed my faith, K

Thanks Gary, I am going to get this done no matter what. It will be easier to walk off the weight when I can breathe K

Okay, I think I have Boo (the person who forgot his pants) has the same name as the other Grandma in our family goes by Boo, Boo may play the banjo, so did my father. And likes to tell racy jokes. Do I have you correct? Doreen is free from cigarettes. Must have a big heart and is a real jewel. She may enjoy an adult beverage because she is saving me a seat at the nonsmokers bar. Do I have you correct? These are two people I have met at the party. K

Thanks Jillar, found it, see the stuff you have shown me. I will keep on exploring. I feel like I have gone to a really great party and been introduced to a hundred new people. Now I need to remember everyone's name and the which story belongs to each of you. Thanks for sharing other ways I can get this done. K

working it all, have a lozenge, air cig and just finished homemade bread for the neighbors. Once it rises and is baked I can deliver. I know I should not worry about the weight but I went thru heck to lose 20lbs. I will not let this stop me. Easier to lose weight than quit. I do not want to have to go thru this again. I had a small practice quit when I had surgery, just 24 little hours in the hospital. It was awful, in pain, could not smoke and a girl just could not get a diet coke. I drank so much water I got low sodium and they had to IV me some saline solution. Okay, gonna get back to distraction going to wipe down the bottom kitchen cabinets and the walls. Thank for letting me whine. K PS what is the notifications thing it pops up but I try to click on it and it disappears? .

i am new to the board and am trying to learn how everything works. Opah told me just pick a thread and start going. What I have found on here is a bunch of funny guys that seem like they are at the bar having a beer and one upping each other. You are very good! I know my husband would have loved to play too. You have used some of the things he would have said. Thanks for taking me back to that time. I am "taking this to mattresses" I think that is how it goes K

I have an arsenal but still struggling. Can't do anything real physical due to recent hip replacement. I can't get up or down very easy so only so much house cleaning I can do. I am currently smoking a plastic straw, seems to help some. When I am done with my straw it will bake to the kitchen to bake. keeps me busy...but we quit smoking for better health and I can't stop eating. I have to get control or I will have a whole other problem. I am no good with technology. I love the board, first time I have ever done this. Find myself getting frustrated when I can't get things work right and just that makes me want to smoke. K

Mom to four year old son on the toilet Are you okay? Son: No Mom, I think I'm complicated! Son is 32 now and he is even more complicated. Family reunion, snacks everywhere. People kept asking why the nuts were wet. Finally found out why.....2 year old niece putting them in her mouth, sucking off the salt and very politely returning them to the bowl. Sorry not good at jokes, all I could come up. Thanks for all the laughs! K

Abby, Thanks! I am not nicotine free yet. Using NRT to help me get thru the first part. I am using lozenges but starting my step down today. Put one in my mouth , set the kitchen timer for 2 minutes then take it out (this will sound gross) and place on a saucer. Wait until I get another bad crave and I will do all over again. I am hoping this will help me cut the NRT down and help me get to nicotine free. Hope this works. Has anyone else tried this method. PS Also having acupuncture three times a week and the always good old hard candy and lollipops. K

Linda, First time looking at your thread. You could have a second career as a motivational speaker (typist) So glad to have positive input while I fight. K

Well I am up. have that first thing in the morning crave but it is not as bad as yesterday. I slept well and it seems I am getting my feet back. I thought I would be over the worst of it by now but not yet. I am just going to focus on anything else today. Yesterday was such a b**** I thought I would break. I am glad I took advice from all of you, threw out everything that had to do with the habit, if you don't have em, you can't smoke em. K

Thanks Opah, it makes me happy to know I can throw a fit and there is no judgement. So yes that is just what I did this afternoon. Bad thing was I got so worked up I gave myself a migraine. And to top it off I really want a smoke. Don't worry, nope. not going to do it!! Maybe you can help me with a problem. Are there any tutorials on using this sight. I have never joined a group like this and I can't figure out how everything works. Things just pop up and I don't know how or when or what to do. I feel like I am in a game of clue. I can't find a candlestick or the library. ( I think that was part of Clue) I think Boo won, he found his pants! K

Dear Katgirl You are absolutely correct, I do suffer from depression, anxiety and panic attacks....have all my life. I do have professional care and crazy as it sounds when my husband was sick it kind of went away. I was so focused on his health that I did not have time to breathe. When he died I fell into a deeper black hole. Lord knows I try and try everyday. Sorry, just having a pity party today. K