idontsmoke

Sounds good to me too!

.... because you can't crave nicotine when you're so medicated you sleep most of the day lol

NOPE!

NOOOOOOOPE

PS look at those stats. no wonder I have more money in savings lol

Hi @jillar Much better. and youre right, anything that is determined in my brain as deserving a reward triggers a craving. So do other situations Id usually vape, which is any situation where 

Ive been unable to for a period of time, but im sure that goes for all of us. Pain and being alone to recover causes fear which is a trigger BUT i have no desire to *actually* relapse

Thank you for asking

TY all who responded. 

To be clear (maybe I wasnt)  seriously planning the relapse was only while i was in the recovery room.....once i was released it was a desire, not a plan, and i got thru it. By the time i got home as well as today I have no desire to *actually* vape

Oh boy. This is me (in remission)....reading

NOPE I say NOPE.  Not today Satan

Hi friends. Like I've said, I've been having unrelenting cravings for most of this quit; a month longer than any other quit. While they are uncomfortable I'm getting through them. 

I had my shoulder surgery yesterday and from the second I woke up in the recovery room the cravings were on me. I started planning my relapse and it was REAL. Or maybe my defenses were down because of the heavy meds. Either way, this is the first time I have planned my relapse that seriously.

So today I'm craving as usual but better than yesterday which is good cuz it was close. I'm grateful I have motivation to stay quit.

Thought I should SOS this since I can "go there" so quickly

I was prepared for smoking/vaping dreams. When I got clean and sober I had drug/drinking drings (still do, once in a while) But wow the one I just woke up from was a DOOZY.

I am okay. i'm not going to smoke. But dang I'm still craving and reeling and thought it might take the power out of it to tell you guys about it.

My surgery is today! I check in at 7:40, and should be done by noon.....home and recovering this afternoon. I'll pop in later! I hope you all have a great, smoke free day.

Its a beautiful day for NOPE

19 hours ago, Mona said:

Good luck on your surgery @idontsmoke!  I once had a surgery where the surgeon wouldn't do it unless I was quit for two full months minimum.  He said that it would be too risky because smokers don't heal as well as non-smokers.  It's what "inspired" my cold turkey quit a number of years ago.

Hi Mona, thanks for the reply....I'm surprised but happy your doctor drew that line. I've always had doctors suggest quitting and not smoking after surgery but I never listened. This is a new orthopedist who didnt know me when I was vaping but is ecstatic I quit, none the less. I'm glad your doctor's requirement got you to quit!

On 7/7/2020 at 8:15 AM, JohnQ said:

 

 

It's wonderful to get to the point where we can just laugh at it and no longer need to put up a fight with the cravings. 

I find that it helped my quit tremendously once I comprehend the fact that it was an addiction, then every time a craving came on it was much easier for me to overcome it because I realize now that I'm fighting for my freedom because I no longer want to be an addict.  Where as in previous failed quits I thought I was just trying to break "a habit". 

Education about smoking is definitely essential for quitting.

Thanks John, I'm a recovering addict/alcoholic and can tell you you hit the nail on the head with that one. I'm so glad you're doing well!

13 hours ago, Doreensfree said:

Positive vibes for Friday ....

Nothing worse than seeing patients...outside the hospital smoking attached to drips ect....

You can rest properly and get well sooner.. 

Thank you Doreen! I was that person. During the last surgery (knee replacement) my former partner wheeled me out of the hospital and up the street so we could vape....and I hadn't vaped for over 24 hours since it was an overnight stay. Sick. I'm so happy I'm going into this one nicotine free

On 7/15/2020 at 1:18 PM, jillar said:

I'm looking forward to reading about the difference in your recovery Michelle. I have no doubt that you will see many positive ones as well as a speedier recovery 

Thanks Jillar! I'm sure its going to be a much better recovery this time around!  Thank you for being so supportive 

NOPE no matter what my brain tells me! NOPE

The covid-19 test nasal swap is NOT a peice of cake! I had to get one a couple hours ago to get cleared for my shoulder surgery Friday. It was not my favorite.

On the topic of surgery, I've had way more orthopedic surgeries than I care to remember in recent years but this will be the first one nicotine free. I'm excited to see the difference in healing time and respiratory recovery.

I hope everyone is having a super dee dooper day!

On 6/14/2020 at 9:24 AM, Doreensfree said:

Lol.....I see I'm not the only Horney Toad around here !!!

Not at all Doreen. I'm the Queen of Crushes and may or may not be a little bit of a cougar. The jury is still out on that one.

NOPE!!

This is not an SOS because I am resolved to NOT vape or smoke....I love everything about this quit except the cravings. They are brief but strong enough to be very uncomfortable. They are a combination of physical and mental ("I will get to vape when I get off the bus/out of the store/off work/when I get out of bed, u name it) I know it takes awhile to get over 40 years of cravings, but I've had several quits lasting a year or so and I don't remember craving this far into it. Would love some feedback on coping.

Oh also, I have my shoulder surgery Friday so any good juju, prayers or whatever you rock, sent my way would be appreciated! Ty!!!

NOPE even when I want to, NOPE even when it sounds like a fine idea, NOPE when my brain hijacks me and begs for a vape...NOPE NOPE NOPE I'm done. *Takes a long deep yummy breath and smiles *

*takes a delicious deep breath and says NOOOOOPEEEE

Late again but doing fine and yelling NOPE NOT TODAY SATAN

Oh boy am I late! Having cravings but saying NOPE one craving at a time

....aren't they fun? </sarcasm>

I guess my intense craving the other day (thanks for responding to my SOS) triggered the vivid smoking dream last night. At least it didn't upset me or make me crave, it was just annoying.   As I've mentioned before I'm in recovery from addiction, and I occasionally have using or drinking dreams but as time goes on they are rare. I believe these dreams are my brain processing the major change of quitting. I think smoking dreams will also become rare if I keep at this thang. My quit is getting easier (just for today)

I'm having shoulder surgery a week from tomorrow. Yesterday was my pre-op appointment. The medical assistant and I were blown away by my blood pressure reading! I usually run 120-ish over 80-ish but it was much lower yesterday. She said it was the best BP reading she had seen that day.  It is fueling my quit, as long as being able to take a deep breath pretty much anytime I want. I'm so happy.

No matter what is going on in the world or in my personal life.....NOPE