Rowly,
I am so sorry you smoked, but really glad you are wanting to start your quit again. I've noticed you do well in your quit when posting and reading on the board. There has to be a plan. Telling yourself you are going to quit and that's all there is to it, isn't working for you. So, how about figuring out just what will work for you? Come to the board on a regular basis, even if it's just to pledge NOPE each morning before work. What are your triggers? What caused you to relapse? Do you need information on this addiction? Understanding why and how you want to smoke is half the battle.