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you are not a fool and we all need help thats why we are here together to help ourselves and others yes you can do this just jump and take it a step at a time, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day keep reading and posting yahoo lets go IAMQUIT :)

lace is ace xxxx a hell of a journey lace and we are together in this we are all in this soup together so proud of you xxx

welcome to the train :)

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awww welcome cyrsalis so nice to see you here :)

So for a week or so now I have felt its presence you can actually feel it coming to the front my excuses for entertaining it oh Im in a different country, I have no friends here, no job, no car etc etc I am alone in the day and all I know is my old friend Smokey - he will keep me company!! thats something familiar that I could do right??? I was fighting these thoughts and thought what great excuses I have to relapse, no one could blame me surely!! I didn`t want to tell anyone about it as I didn`t want anyone to talk me out of it! it all came to ahead on my birthday, too much wine and feeling sorry for myself again, missing my family and a hug from them (birthdays are always special in my family) I purposely fell out with Rez so this would give me even more of an excuse! I stormed out of the hotel and went stomping downtown on my own/drunk! with only one purpose and that was to buy Cigs I did buy them! I had them in my hand - mission complete - now what? STOP THINK!! choice 1 - open and smoke go back to square one and be a smoker choice 2 - return to hotel a non smoker I chose choice 2 - I returned to the hotel, no Rez OMFG where has he gone I was more worried about him then, he obviously went looking for me worried sick what I was going to do crave hit again now - OMG what have I done phew Rez returns - I confess to buying cigs but not had one - he suggests we go out - I agree I need distractions craves all gone, just glad we are safe and non smokers go to casino meet some crazy couples and end up spending the evening with them guess what they are all smokers! no crave I just watch them and Rez is my non smoking bouncer - NOPE and it was gone, all that drama gone on return to the apartment yesterday I took myself off to reflect as that scared the living daylights out of me the night before, how easy it could have been to throw away 8 months just like that on reflection I asked myself Tracey seriously do you want to be a smoker or a non smoker? I really looked in depth in myself and my answer was a non smoker no matter what it takes day by day for the rest of my life if thats what it takes and sometimes it will be like that as there will always be something that I could use for an excuse right my name is Tracey I am a nicotine addict and this was my brush with relapse today is a better day :) stick to NOPE its our best weapon

its a good thing to reflect doreen and to reaffirm that contract to yourself of why you quit and what you put yourself through to get to the freedom you have today when a dear friend has relapsed it does bring this question to the front of your mind and its a time to sit down with oneself and have a cuppa and a real honest talk to ones self i did this to myself yesterday and i will continue to do this to myself for as long as it takes - decades if need be this verbal contract is a lifetime contract but sometimes we have to go back to a day at a time again NOP doreen and eventually EVER will come xxxxxxx tough love - dont use your feet for just 1 hour or just 1 day and then imagine being like that for the rest of your life!!! chin up sweet lady today is just a bad day, tommorow will be better xxxxxx

oh Jackie whatever is going on in your personal life, I hope it gets sorted hun please PM or facebook message no lectures just a shoulder for you and maybe help get head straight a few days ago this could have been me posting this post i will put up a post about it I wish now i had posted it earlier as it may have helped you :( all I can say is now you have to really reflect on what you want, stress and bad situations are a part of all our lives the only difference is what we really want at the end of the day to be a smoker or to be a non smoker i hope at the end of the day hun you want to be a non smoker and you come back to us ASAP before it gets a hold of you please stay close to the board, go back to basics if you need to we will always be here for you xxxxx

I vote pink

Lol such talent and so pretty x

Welcome whacky :) I love that game great stress buster ;) I used to pretend it was ex husband and really whack that mole :)

I'm hanging Nope!

Lmao what some special men we have what times the bus? ;) Shake your money makers boyz :)

No marti I am back in uk in october real pants connection cant upload any photos until return tommorow night got some good window specials ;)

Nope

At Niagara Falls Canadian side a year older and sore feet I need flip flops

I drink detox sometimes and its like swamp water but I go by the logic all that tastes bad is good for you I drink green tea, sometimes I add honey to it and it changes the taste completely I also like making my own from herbs im a secret witch lol ginger tea or rosemary tea is good experiment with herbs and spices :)

Nope from me and rez

Welcome iulia read and post I found education and support to be the key for success congratulations on your quit how are you today?

Sandy you are at 3 weeks what took me 8 months to figure out triggers are to do with situations or emotions it has nothing to do with smoking dealing with the source is the key you are doing fab sandy xxx

Happy birthday Amy I hope you have a great day xxx

Wow sandy 3 weeks is fantastic Yahooo so happy for you. Xx

Smashing the barriers when they show up which can be anytime even this week Mr junkie head is shouting at me but I'm ignoring him and going about my business I know too well now what it's about and it's not smoking Jackie and lace you both are doing fantastic you two keep holding on that rope as we most certainly are on this journey together xxx

Yay keep turning then corners fantastic xx

Here for you lace with hugs frosting and big boots if needed xxxx