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Yes Kate, PLEASE at least try using the air cigarette. It really did the job at getting me through the cravings. You've been at this a long time, years, so at this point it wouldn't hurt to try the clues that worked for us. I REALLY want you to succeed and I know you can. You just have to believe it too

" Trying to figure out how to make a running list of cravings, not separate blog entries." The only way to do this is to 'edit' into your original post or post new entries down here in the comment section. This works really well for Hellkatbaby. The sooner you switch up your patterns and triggers the easier this will be, Kate. I know, easier said than done. Move your coffee cup, put it in a trigger-free zone. Take breaks and reward yourself with something, breaths...happy memory, music, dance.... Replace smokey thoughts with deep cleansing breaths, use @jillar's Air Cigarette. Distract yourself, reward yourself for every crave conquered ! You are doing important work. Stay with it for a minute, another hour, a day, a month, a year. NOPE is the mantra, just like Free Your Head. S

Just my thoughts for you here about the wig thing ..................... My neighbor has lung cancer and has been in treatments for the past year. She wears a wig when she goes out and I have had interactions with her both with and without her wig on. I prefer to see her without it because to me it represents the courage she has in fighting her cancer with tenacity and complete dignity. I do understand wanting a wig for when one goes out in general public when you are exposed to people you don't know or have any connection with but, I think that maybe those who know you and what you are going through might have a very different perspective. I know it inspires me when I see her in her natural state.

Now *there's a thought! Good idea, especially when I read the complaints online (on America's favorite online place) about various juggling ball sets. I want the kind that don't roll away. I have that kind, and spend more time searching out the balls under furniture than juggling. Thanks, Jillar, great idea.

Yes, and now, again. I just finished watching a charming movie before going to bed. Now is when I would have smoked. Instead, I practiced twirling my pen between my fingers for a minute or two. It's tougher than it looks. Started off with the pen as pseudo-cigarette. I think I'll order small bean bags online and learn to juggle through my cravings. It'll be a new skill. New neurons forming and old ones being pruned away.

If it feels too silly you can use a cut straw or a pen instead of the invisible cig I used. One of our members used licorice for hers which I wish I had of thought of lol. Hope it helped you get past your craves?

The after-dinner craving has settled in. Had an ice cream bar as a reward for getting through it. That's a heavy one, after dinner. Made it, though. On to the next.

Richard, just like Linda said, we'll be here if you need an ear....

Richard, we understand your grief. Know that we are here if you need us. May the love of your family help sustain you in this sorrowful time.

That's a great idea Kate. And if you really want to keep your hands busy you could make the bean bags yourself

use it to give yourself a hit of OXYGEN !!

Getting the urge again...still. Time to read some posts from other quitters Thanks, jillar, I will try it. Now, as I'm reading posts

take a walk, take a shower, scream into a pillow. just got to power through the gruesome days. they will soon be over. all this discomfort is temporary

My deepest sympathy Richard .... You are in our hearts and thoughts at this sad time ... I'm lost my partner in May to this horrible illness....after a 15 year battle .... We do understand your pain .... xx

My heart breaks for you, your wife, and your children, Richard. Thank you for taking the time to come here to remind all of us of the difference between temporary discomfort and cravings, and real unfathomable loss. Please take care of yourself and hold your children tight as that's all that matters right now. We are here for you if and when you choose.

Gutted to read of the passing of your wife Richard. My deepest sympathies to you for your loss. Thank you for having the courage to share this with others. I'm sure your motivation is to make even just 1 person think twice about quitting. Thank you for that. I know it can't be easy to do that.

And that's pretty much how the day went lol! Grease has been on and even though I've seen it a million times I could watch it a million more. I do think the CBD helped. I used to smoke weed recreationally and of course it always gave me a good sleep and chilled me out lol. So I did have her pick me up a bottle that way I can have 1 to take at night and then 1/4 or 1/2 the dose for my anxiety during the day as I ween off the Xanax. Also doing my rabbit hole researching found that there is no interaction between the Tagrisso and medical marijuana so then dug into the case studies and basically it came down to nothing but beneficial. And being in the state of Fl. I'm eligible to obtain my card based on my dx. Of course I plan to let my Dr. know, not sure if he'll be pro or con but again that's where I get to step in as my own 'patient advocate' and make my own decision and not be denied treatment. Again it's just something that makes sense vs taking a bunch of synthetics for this or that when there's something natural that will do it all. I reached out to my neighbor today who went through it with breast cancer and she was so glad I did and I am too. I really needed someone close to talk to and apparently she had been waiting for me to reach out. We talked for a good hour or so and I just felt so much better afterwards. It helps when someone 'gets it'. She's also retired and the caretaker for her husband (dementia and dialysis) so she's been feeling isolated and lonely and would enjoy spending time with someone. So we agreed we'd support each other. Starting tomorrow we are going to start a ritual of walking every AM before it gets too hot. We both need the exercise and now have a buddy to do it with. Then in the afternoons her H doesn't have treatments or my family isn't here we'll get together and play board games or cards. She's a big scrabble fan so that works for me and helps keep the mind sharp. But I think all and all we were both relieved to know that were not alone in our situations and that two are better than one and we can encourage each other. Hopefully tonight I sleep good. I hope everyone has a goodnight and remember NOPE!!! We can do this!!

One day at a time hellkat, it's working great for you so I agree there's no reason to look too far down the rabbit hole. As far as going crazy in the house, maybe you could visit your local animal shelter and take some dogs for a walk or spend time with the cats and bunnies. There's also rest homes with people who have no family who would love to see a positive friendly face