So I watched two others start a topic like that, figured could be a good monitoring to catch or see 'slips' coming up, and prevent them. 

Ok, 3 days today. Bleh, Not really awake, Hadn't thought of a cig at all, first in the morning is picking up my phone and starting the NOPE pledge. 

I hate it when I'm awake so early and it stays dark so long, like I'm waking up WAAYYY too early. Therapy today, always am cranky bout that  <_< funny T quit smoking to caz of health issues and 'he doesn't like it anymore', lol 

Well yesterday I worked in the walk-in and it was awsome, so totally crossed my boundaries with my hip but I figured if I stand and walk and shift the boundarie a little, my muscles get stronger and it won't hurt as much. I did bar shift 2 and a half hour, with a few times of sitting down jeesh I was tired afterwards :D but so satisfying and many ran outside for their shot, I didn't have to feed my addiction.  :wub:

LOVED my job. And they told me I sparkled  :D and besides window licking it is very satisfying to be usefull in the society  B)

OK, that's it for now. 

I was tense, so I did a meditation to open and cleanse my chakra's

Great post EV..keep that positivity.. You and everyone here..knows you can do this..

Keep moving forward..x

Good morning, Evelyn!!  Glad to see you posting.  

I think posting helps keep my quit firmly in my mind as a priority. 

I had to rearrange the universe in order to support this quit and I am NOT NOT NOT dropping it yet.

Keep posting.  Love to see it.

Thanks Door and ExTex.

Tough afternoon, I felt like having just one. I was like 'NOPE!!!' Then I felt you're not worth it, you can smoke anyway -the usual nicodemon excuses; I replied 'The hell I'm worth it, NOPE!!! NOPE. NOPE. NOPE. I am more then worth it to guard this quit and love myself!'

So now I'm eating my first dinner in a month  :huh: and got an important lesson from my therapist; people who screw you over, don't even deserve your attention... drop then, ignore them... focus on positive healing  :lol:

So here's my wise lesson.

Don't let the stinkin thinkin in ..you know there is NO such thing as one...EV you know this...right....

Tell that nico monster on your shoulder to take a hike...your a non smoker.....non smokers..

Don't Smoke !!!

I know sweetheart. I'm just having a rough day. I refuse to smoke, NOPE. I may cry yell punch a pillow - don't worry I'm not in crisis hun - just some rough patches. I say SCREW the smokes.... NOPE!!!!!!!!!

Thanks Door and ExTex.

Tough afternoon, I felt like having just one. I was like 'NOPE!!!' Then I felt you're not worth it, you can smoke anyway -the usual nicodemon excuses; I replied 'The hell I'm worth it, NOPE!!! NOPE. NOPE. NOPE. I am more then worth it to guard this quit and love myself!'

So now I'm eating my first dinner in a month  :huh: and got an important lesson from my therapist; people who screw you over, don't even deserve your attention... drop then, ignore them... focus on positive healing  :lol:

So here's my wise lesson.

 

Well if they screw you over hard you must have revenge at some point. Opportunities arise.

 

Good to see you solid Evelyn. You once had months under your belt you can do this.

 

Good lad.

Rock on Evelyn!

Thanks all of you

Morning brought fears and tears then I remembered and used Sgt. Words as a mantra

Easy peasy.

So I dropped all shifts stressing worries and went to the tattooshop to retouch my hand.

Am relaxing at the neighborhood walk in now.

Sgt. I always got cross but I now can use your advice, quite literally.

Easy peasy all. Let others shit their pants

And always NOPE

Great job Evelyn!  You got this and have more strength than you think.  Getting through the tough cravings and tough moments only makes you stronger to say no the next time :)  KEEP IT UP!

I'm getting suspicious... this is too easy  :wacko: can it be sooo easy?

 

I feel free, just on edge of a surprise popping up...

Breathe in and out. All is good.

All is good...enjoy it...xx

I'm getting suspicious... this is too easy  :wacko: can it be sooo easy?

 

Yep.

 

Proceed.

I'm getting suspicious... this is too easy  :wacko: can it be sooo easy?

 

I feel free, just on edge of a surprise popping up...

 

If its being easy roday, hey, enjoy it. Life is not easy on us very often. Dont worry about tommorow, thats another problem entirely.