@Kris I  agree but no we are not going to do

that!!! We are winning the battle!!!

Edited November 25, 20214 yr by Linda

Never forget how far

You've come all the times

you pushed on even when

you felt you couldn't

all the mornings you got

out of bed no matter

how. hard it was all the times

you wanted to give up but

fought through another day

never forget the strength you've 

gained along the way

 

If you can't run away to a cabin 

in the woods right now start small

make a cup of tea and find a sunset to watch

turn off your phone and read a book in the bath

go for a drive and blast some great music

fight for moments of peace in the midst of the crazy

you can do this

 

 

Linda, having a huge influx of emotion, makes sense to me at this time of year.  I know I need to have abreakdown and it get it out but thanks to antidpressants I am a walking door knob.  Can't muster up anger, hate, sadness, grief.  I think I need a nice cleansing bottle of booze.  A good hours long crying screaming pity party, so that is my plan

@Kris Sorry you are struggling. This time of the year can be difficult

for some.I try to focus on the good memories. Also I try and think of things

I have to be grateful for. I'm sure your grandson would love to come and spend

some time with grandma and get spoiled. Makes some good memories for him!!!

@KrisThe biggest part of recovery for me is the "rigorous honesty." The fact that you feel like crap and are owning it is the medicine. I write letters I never send. It helps me to see what is inside waiting to be healed. I used to do all kinds of burning ceremonies as a way to physically surrender that which has past.

Be kind to yourself. Sending strength and love to you. 

Thanks, let's face it sometime we girls just need a good old fashioned cry, somehow it brings some kind of peace.  @Linda, as luck would have it my son called to see if he and my grandson could spend the night next saturday.  My DIL is having a slumber party with her girlfriends. I hope I can take the boys out for an evening at a giant arcade and some bowling.  Then have a dinner out.  Yes, Kris, there is a Santa Claus!

I still would like to visit that cabin, in the woods, can I have it overlook the lake? Can I bring the dogs for long walks?Can I have it prestocked with food and drink? Can there be a hot tub and a huge bed as soft as clouds?  If I am going to have a fantasy, I want to make sure I don't forget aything.

Thanks for my pretend memories!

@Kris Glad your son and grandson are coming!! That will be

a nice evening. Yes I agree about a good cry sometimes. I'm not

feeling to great today myself. Your welcome ,you can imagine that

cabin anytime! Of course it has to be on the lake lol

@Linda. I am sorry to hear you are having a bad day. Things are not great here just mental stuff that comes with the seaason and living alone.  I know you get it.  It can get hard to fill up the day around the holidays.  The plan was to go out and get get a small christmas tree...I have not had one up in years.  Somehow I could not get dressed and go out.  I have just tried to be busy here at home, cooking for the week.  Playing chase with the dogs in the yard still in my PJs.  Hopefully we will all sleep well tonight.  I am not going to lie, it would be comforting to smoke but I know that is not a part of my life anymore, but I do wish I had not run out of wine. LOL Thanks for being here! 

@Kris I do understand!!  I usually always decorate for Christmas

but for some reason I'm not into it at all this year. I think with all the

health issues that have cropped up this year have me pretty discouraged.

I know it will pass but I too am finding it hard dealing with them being alone.

And I too think about smoking but that is not going to happen. Thank you for

being here also and understanding. We will get there, with a new year in the future

I do have wine in my fridge lol

You either get bitter or

you get better its that simple

You either take what has been

dealt to you and allow it to make

you a better person or allow it to

tear you down  the choice does not

belong to fate it belongs to you

Le

This Christmas we don't

need more stuff we need

more love towards one another

Don't waste your time looking

back on what you lost move

on for life is not meant to

be traveled backwards

43 minutes ago, Linda said:

You either get bitter or

you get better its that simple

You either take what has been

dealt to you and allow it to make

you a better person or allow it to

tear you down  the choice does not

belong to fate it belongs to you

Le

I didn't realize I needed this one until I kept rereading it. Thanks for posting it 🤗

It takes a lot of

courage to

push through

hard times

never give up

good things

are coming your way

Don't you see how

far you've come

you have slot to

be proud of and

every reason to

keep moving forward

its time to start believing

in yourself you got this

We must be willing

to let go of the life

we planned so

as to have the life

that is waiting for us

Positive people are not

Positive because they've

skated through life they're

positive because they've 

been through hell and

decided they don't want

to live there anymore

Tomorrow night I pack the truck and hook up the trailer, bright and early I am on the road.  5 hours later I will be pulling into Parkfield, Ca, once there the first thing I do is break out my day pack with My license and tags and my rifle.   I could catch some walking down the ridge beside where I set up camp, it has been a while since anyone has been up there those Hogs will be taking the short cuts thru the house lot to get to the meadows across the road.  1/2 an hour to get the trailer up and my hunting stuff organized in it,  check the property out.

I be getting back to you guys the 2nd of Jan 2022.

BYE

@Opah Have a great time and be safe. Merry Christmas!!!

Sunrises  are the reminders

that there is always a

new day

if it didn't work out

yesterday it will work

out today

We all have past

we all made choices that

maybe weren't  the best ones

none of of us are completely innocent

but we get a fresh start everyday to be

A better person than we were yesterday

 

No one will ever fully be able

to understand the internal

battles you had to endure just

to heal just to grow just to make

it here today be proud of the way

you fought to save yourself be proud of the

way you survived

 

As long as you feel pain

you're still alive as long

as you make mistakes

your still human and

as long as you keep trying

there's still hope

Look for something positive in

everyday even if some days

you have to look a little harder