Soberjulie

You are amazing my friend. Thanks for clearing the path ahead of me. :)

Went and saw it tonight with hubby. We enjoyed it. Like others have said, it's VERY loosely based on the biblical story of Noah.......so if you watch it with no expectations/comparisons to the bible story, it's am amazingly well made movie in my opinion.

Colleen, this is goose-bumpy kinda stuff. It's so cool to know you better....to see where you were and how far you've come.

Wow Jenny. :) Awesome to take a look backwards sometimes isn't it? You've come so far and I really admire you.

:) My dad used to tell me stories that always started with: "This one time, when I was a boxer........" "This one time when I was a police man......." "This one time, when I was a cab driver......" I thought he was larger than life (still do!) he had done everything!! Then when my kids were old enough to listen, he'd start...... "This one time, when Poppa was a movie star....." "This one time, when Poppa was a garbage man......" "This one time, when Poppa owned a candy factory......." -sigh- God willing, he'll stay healthy long enough to tell his nutty made up stories to Maverick, his great grandson :)

Oh gosh Lil'bug..... I love that. Thank you :)

Next time a cop wants to pull you over for speeding, try to outrun him for awhile. Pull over eventually and then just explain: "My wife left me for a cop. I thought you were him....trying to bring her back!" :p

:) Lovely post Rachel. It deserves bumped from time to time so a newbie will see it......and have some hope that it's not as big and scary as our mind likes to tell us.

Bumping again, cuz it's one of my favorites :)

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Ok ok. Fine I admit it. I'm just a sucker for a man in a uniform :p

Lol! Welcome to blogging Beacon :)

You people are like tag-team comedy. Y'all should consider going on the road :)

Evelyn, my reply was designed to stress the importance of other issues that are going on with you.....issues that you have openly shared with all of us. I am doubly concerned that now you are calling it a 'numbing of emotions' whereas a week ago you acknowledged that it was an overdose and an attempt at suicide. I want to support you, befriend you, but that does not mean aiding in what I believe is harming you. There is a list of priorities here hon.....this feels like rearranging the deck chairs on the titanic. I have an analogy that might help.... "Hello, I'm here for the support group." "Oh, that's wonderful. Is this your first time here?" "Yes, yes it is." "Well welcome. What... if you don't mind my asking, what kind of cancer have you been diagnosed with? I only ask so that maybe I can introduce you to some folks who have similar diagnosis, and maybe you can..." "Oh, I, ummm... I don't actually have cancer." "I'm sorry, what?" "I have Diabetes. Really bad. Apparently when they took a blood sample the other day it was indistinguishable from the icing on a Cinnabon... [silence for a minute] <cough> ...yeah, that was a ... I was trying to be... anyway, I'm here for the support group. They tell me this is the best one in the city." "Well, I suppose it is, but it's for people with a cancer diagnosis." "Are you telling me you won't help me?" "No... I mean, not exactly. But ... don't you think you should go where they're talking about what you're facing? What you'll have to deal with?" "But everyone says that the cancer support group has the most solid support -- it's been around the longest and... well, it's the best. We're all sick and frightened and need help, why not come to the 'best' place to get it -- support-wise, I mean." "Yes, but ... here they talk about how they feel when telling family and friends about their diagnosis, or how to stay upbeat while waiting to get on a new drug trial or how to cope with depression after a difficult round of chemo..." "I'm going to have to tell my family and friends about my illness. I'm going to have to stay upbeat while I wait for stuff from the doctor. I'm going to be depressed after ... stuff." "I'm... I'm sure you are. But..." "For a support group you don't seem very welcoming." "It's not that I'm... don't you think you'll get more out of a group which is talking about Diabetes? How to deal with changing your diet, or sticking to your exercise regimen, or the best way to administer your ... " "I don't want to hear about those things, I want to hear what you have to say here. Are you telling me I can't come in?" "No, it's just ... I mean we welcome anyone but really I think you'll get more out of a group which talks about your specific..." "Look, can I come in or not?" "I... yes. Yes." "Good. I have a lot to say about how I'm dealing with my diagnosis and I need a safe space to ..." "Wait, you want to talk about your Diabetes diagnosis in a Cancer Support...?" "Sick is sick, and afraid is afraid and it's all the same thing." "No. Yes. But..." Sigh ((hugs)))

Thanks Colleen :) Too late.....I let myself be bossed around by him. Again. He has handcuffs. :huh: And a gun :o

Bossy this morning, arent we? Must be the uniform......:p

You bad @ss! I have enough trouble staying away from here when I can hear crickets. It's my newest addiction I think. I just keep swapping one for another. Booze for shoes, coke for workaholism, pills for music, now it's cigarettes for a forum? At least I'm paring down the levels of harm :p Plus I go back to work on the 29th. While I won't be going cold turkey from here, my time will be limited. Probably suffer withdrawals.

Ev, are you listening to Comrade or Johnny or Ladybug? I tried to convey that message a number of days ago too. You JUST had a suicide attempt. That stuff does not 'sort itself out' in a matter or days or a week. Ev I am a nurse, I worked in mental health for years. You, and some well meaning folks here, are doing you more harm than good in my opinion. You have some HUGE changes coming up, a change in living circumstances, yes? You just started a new medication. You are on again/off again with nicotine patches and valerian. Stop this. Smoking is not your worry today! It's just the easiest place to look because at the moment, you can make it appear that you can have control over that.......whereas everything else going on is out of your control. You need proper medical intervention, assessment and treatment. Your medical team needs to be part of your plan to quit smoking WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT. All of us will be here for you when that time comes. But Ev, that time ain't now m'dear. You absolutely need to focus on your mental health.

No matter what life throws my way, be it reason to cry/celebrate/hide/laugh/scream I will not smoke. There is no reason to smoke today.

Japanese proverb: Fall down seven times, stand up eight? -sigh-

Atta girl :) Look at you, you amazing non-smoker. :)