The days just aren't passing fast enough and the problems that I drown with my smoking seem to be so much more exacerbated! My mind is trying to tell me that I coped because I smoked but I know that isn't accurate. I keep thinking of that first cigarette in my life and how many long years I smoked. Then I think that it is too late for me - I smoked way too long. Then again, that is what brought me here hoping that this is my last stop chance to quit.
Right now I am feeling depressed because I'm not smoking but I felt depressed when I was smoking. I keep reading the posts to see when that craving will go away and it does seem to be a long journey. Then I begin to think the journey is too long for me.
I know I am rambling but I know it is better than smoking. 😕