Welcome back, @Kdad
I'm sorry you quit but I'm glad you are back. I can tell you from first-hand experience that the cycle you are in, quit/relapse/quit/relapse really sucks. It is torture. You are miserable when you are smoking and you know you need to quit and that you would be better off if you quit. You quit for a certain amount of time, keep thinking about smoking, and eventually relapse. The thing you need to do is quit and quit for good. In fact, I think I may have said this exact thing the last time you came back from a relapse.
Time to quit for good and quit torturing yourself. You may struggle early on but you'll be much better off long-term. Remember and believe the fact that smoking does absolutely nothing positive for you. All the supposed benefits to smoking are lies. There is no downside to quitting but there are tons of downsides to staying a smoker.
Stick close to this site. Pledge NOPE (Not One Puff Ever) daily and mean it. Reach out for help BEFORE you smoke. Read up on info about nicotine addiction here.
Time to quit, @Kdad You can do this.