Geez Steven, sounds like the last few days have been hell for you. You need to try some distraction. I don't know you and so have no clue what might help. Just have to go off my list.
Big glass jar on coffee table full of soft and hard peppermint, butterscotch, werthe
rs hard caramel, dum dum lollipops, life savers, all your favorite gums.
Second jar...all your favorite nuts, some in shell so you have to work for it, peanuts, pistachios, sunflower seeds, harder to shell pecans, almonds, walnuts, my personal favorite, brazil nuts!
Put a bowl next to this jar with nut crackers and use the bowl for shells. If you are married or have a girlfriend DO not make a mess and leave it.
Next off to the hobby shop, for me puzzles, color fine images with markers and pencils. Looking into taking crochet lessons. These may not interest you but were men there looking at all kind of models to build and paint. Also, home brewing your own beer, looking into making your own jerky and dried fruits and veggies. Really big here in Dallas/Fort Worth.
My favorite is dehydrated okra.
And as everyone here has taught me water, water, more water. I know it is a cheat thing but i do have some nicotine lozenges for emergencies for my protection and for an innocent bystander who might be in the wrong place and the wrong time if I felt an explosion coming on.
Just find something you enjoy that you can do at home and then when you need to get out, bowling, roller skating, ice skating and my new fav, going to the arcade!
Sorry to be long winded. Just be happy you don't have to hear my voice.
K