Here I am. Experiencing one of the less than optimistic periods. Hoping it is short lived. Having a "channel 19" (read no news today) break.
Will likely NEED to attend to my tooth concern with professional care. Grateful for the blood flow, grateful for tools to provide oral care. My dentist in the previous state had hoped I would get 5 yeas out of this tooth. Coming up on 2.5, so hey, a good run for a former smoker. Concerned as I had put off finding a dentist in this new state (while getting hooked up to new insurance) and now will be looking for care during these covid-19 times. Grateful in advance for finding the perfect dentist at the perfect time.
Had a wild few moments earlier today where my addiction roared and drove me. Luckily it drove me into the woods with the cat vs into the car to the store. Really could've gone either way. It passed.
myself nope life nope hope nope
really don't care for how that reads.... could be true.
writing something here daily-ish
talking to my mom daily
caring for my cats ongoing
sometimes it just seems so heavy, and i feel so used up....or never was....or never learned.....and hindsight is great, and sadness for what was~is wraps around the heart and squeezes like a constrictor...
Any way...will end this vomiting of ick and dance