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Finally Ready. Day One

MichelleDoesntSmokeAnymore

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Hi Everyone and Dear Me,

 

This is a nasty addiction and its harder to kick than the addiction to other substances I've managed to beat into remission and stay clean from one day at a time.   Nicotine is much harder. I smoked for 36 years and have been vaping for the last 3 years. I love the experience of vaping: everything about it except the embarrassment that I was doing it. When I'm quit, once I entertain the idea of smoking  or vaping (just once! lol) the desire grows and grows and grows even as I remind myself its a terrible idea, of how I've been doing well and of all the reasons NOT to. Then it seems like I can't NOT smoke or vape. I know I can make the choice not to though. I've made it before! I've had two long term quits in my life! So I know I can do it.  I want to coexist in my nonsmoking family as a nonsmoker and be around for years and years to come!

 

This is a very very familiar pattern to me. Its the same thought pattern and behavior as I had with drugs and alcohol, and the same one I still struggle with, with food.  So it stands to reason if I use the same tools I learned in recovery and apply them to smoking, which is what I did on my last significant quit, that I WILL STAY QUIT. 

 

I am still open to any suggestions, advice or recommendations. I'm going to spend my evening reading and chatting on the forum, watching Joel Spitzer's videos, brushing my teeth repeatedly, deep breathing and sipping cooooold ice water (helps me more than gum) I also plan to start a blog in the blog section. I also want to encourage others, not only because I want to help others but because it will help me as well. And I need to remember that my sister and brother in law, who are four years older than me, are healthier than me and look much younger than they are. Younger than me maybe even. They have that smooth skin and no vertical lines around their lips, no vertical lines on their neck when its tightened up. IDK if I can reverse the signs of smoking on my face or just stop it in its tracks but the most important thing is my health and longevity anyway.

 

Thanks again for the tough love guys. My every intention at this moment is to stay and have a permanent quit.

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Yes Michelle, you must apply the same self discipline to quitting smoking as you did to quitting drugs and alcohol and you will succeed. :)

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I am happy to see you starting a blog !  Writing can help as does reading EVERYTHING you can about nicotine addiction.

 

You say, 

"My every intention at this moment is to stay and have a permanent quit"

I say,

It is the commitment to yourself and to Not One Puff Ever that will solidify your intentions.

 

Very glad you found us, Michelle.  It will be encouraging and inspiring to read how you build your quit.

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Yaa....Take smoking /Vaping off the Table ...

You will soon start to see and feel the beniefts...If only takes 3 days for the nicotine to leave your body ...after that it just you and that nico monster ..

That taps away at you ...

Your stronger than him ..

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Thank you all. I'm still having monster cravings even with my patch on so I'm seriously considering taking it off. At least its just nicotine, not all the nasty chemicals that are in cigarettes but I keep thinking that as long as I'm wearing it, it means nothing to read the inspirational "how your body heals timeline". IDK. I feel like I need to be in a better place mentally before I make that decision so I'll think about it tomorrow.

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I think the NRT helps people wean off the nicotine.  Eventually you do want it gone.  This is you journey, so you will have to decide your path.  Once the nicotine is out of your body, quitting is just a matter of redirecting your thoughts.  Don't let this addiction control your life anymore.  You can do this.  

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I recommend putting nicotine (in any form) down.  Sure, you will have some bad moments but, they  won't last

and your body will heal rapidly.  Craves do not last long and do not kill you.  You will love your Freedom, I guarantee it.

You must be honest with yourself and make the commitment to NOPE.  Then, you will succeed.

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I agree with you Sazerac about not putting any nicotine in my body but I haven't managed to quit despite multiple tries so I thought it better to wean off nicotine than keep smoking. I have moments of doubt if I'm doing the right thing. Will consider more tomorrow. The for the reply!

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Any quit is a good quit Michelle. The only thing you need to do is stop putting cigarettes in your mouth and lighting them - NOPE, that's it!

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