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Markus can fill you in. When I wrecked my car I made some post that included how I can't have dairy/ice cream. And he loaned me an ice cream truck :)

Mocha Almond Fudge

Not a big fan of ice cream but in my early twenties I became lactose intolerant and haven't been able to have any for years. Annoyed me it wasn't an option even though I don't really like it a whole lot. But today I found dairy free ice cream :) so I just has some. Been so long.

who isn't ;)

Where's your pic bakon.

Who is Leah ;)

W2d3

Cats are cute

I'm weird...i liked the way menthol cigarettes tasted... I enjoyed smoking them with friends... but I dont ever want to smoke again

I know...I know... the struggle is real people

lol nancy I meant I thought that I thought it would be harder... more of an inner fight against wanting to give up and have cigarettes...and ive been waiting and waiting and waiting and Im thinking it just hasnt come and isnt going to.. lol it was kind of a joke

exactly.... very much so ...almost annoyingly so :) I wanted a little fight

well it's almost six months...and I was thinking the other day about this whole thing so far----if I can say one thing in total about the experience from November first up until now is that... damn what a f****** bore?? If someone asked me to sum it all up so far in one word it would be "boring" ...I mean s*** for years....and I mean YEARS I had this awesomely dramatic story all built up in my head. You don't even know... it was full of excitement...agony...pain...tears...unbearableness... I mean some real downright nasty sh**. And I think I must say I am slightly disappointed.... and by slightly I mean very. I guess it's true...we really do make it out to be worse than what it actually ends up being. I was thinking there would be a little more fighting myself you know? A little more inner dialogue like "I can't take this I'm going to get cigarettes" "yes you can suck it up you can do it" "no I really cant stand it anymore I have to have one" "shut the f*** up rachael you're not having a cigarette" "no you shut the f*** up im going to go bum one from someone...this is ridiculous...and don't talk to me like that you nasty little #$%#$%#$" it was more like meh...this (insert sh*** situation) sucks... I used to have a cigarette when stuff like this happened... I guess i don't anymore? hmmm okay then. guess I'll just wait a little bit... nope nevermind...feeling passed. if anything it's been a huge letdown... and if I knew it was going to be such a snoozefest I would have given it up long ago. guess i'll have to catch the drama on some reality show cause I haven't gotten what I thought I was entitled to when I quit... ;)

Always have a back up. I even did when smoking. Problem solved. :)

I hope this no liquor buying today isn't the states. I have had a terrible week and a wine high is what the doctor ordered.

Lol was wondering why someone called you a beautiful lady

This too shall pass. In the beginning sometimes I just said that over and over to myself.

Try not going into it with the thought of failure. Or that you usually fail of are going to. Don't think that way. That is setting yourself up for failure. I really believe that quote "whether you think you can or think you can't, you're right" And you really do have to want to quit more than you want to smoke And you have to believe whole heartedly that having one will do NOTHING for you. It seems you think cigarettes still have something to offer you.

Did w2d2 yesterday

Oh no sue (((((hugs)))))

Real addicts? What/who isn't a "real" one?

yay someone slightly younger than me... never realized how old you were. welcome

thanks for the kind replies all

yes it is crazy...but they are serious and there is a court date and I see where they charged me incorrectly but didnt take that amount from me anyway.. idk all I know is I have a few days to get them to fix most of this.

heart just melted