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20!!! line up, sticks 🤲

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Thank you so much, friends. You all mean so much to me. Even my mom, aunt, hubs, are all thankful for you guys….they tell me how wonderful it is that I have this support from you all. I can’t agree more. ❤️ I have to say, being the subject of a celebratory post was def cool. 🤓 hey….any computer graphic connoisseurs in the house? I was thinking for us 2023ers…. “Nic Free in 2023” @darcy, @Molly2310 what do ya think? 😂

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This is very interesting, as I’ve kind of stopped and asked myself recently, “why can’t I seem to physically get off of the couch, what do I love to do?, why am I crying multiple times a day, am I depressed?”…..I have never asked myself these questions. Whether it’s a true mental illness or just a mental blip I’m going through, I think learning about it will help me get through it. I found this video today and it helped me SO much (kind of long but it was good):

How are you doing, @darcy? ❤️

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@darcy, I’m so sorry you’re having a hard time. I’m not sure how much help I can be, as I’m having a hard time, too. This sucks, but like you said before how it’s great waking up as an ex smoker, I agree except it’s going to bed an ex smoker for me lol. One thing I’ve found helpful is reading about how soooo many people were absolutely miserable, anxious, depressed (sorry people /lol), and having all these big feelings we’re having, so we’re not some broken being, we’re being dragged through the same brush they were too. And they survived. Even tho a cig sounds good right now, the feeling of not breathing, literally flipping off each cig I used to smoke, being in the cold and rain, watching bugs and mice run past me when I smoked in the garage, being anxious, and trips to the hospital for smoking related shit, etc sounds worse. You can msg me anytime, I’m pretty much glued to this board and eating my feelings too (trying to be somewhat healthy but pish posh), even though I’m overweight to begin with prequit lol. I’m actually going to try and take a shower today, wash my bedding, and go to the store. I hope one of those things happen instead of watching tv or TikTok all day. But hey if that needs to happen so be it (I think that’s the first time I gave myself grace recently). Very good on you for getting this far, please keep going, I’m following you gf!!

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@Christian99, that post is truly special to me. Thank you.

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Thank you, friends ❤️❤️ Is it considered a month though since I quit in Feb that only has 28 days? Lol. Regardless, thank you for the messages ❤️❤️ hopefully I won’t have too many more tear-filled, dopamine-depleted crazy lady posts, but I have a feeling there’s a few more a-coming! Lol

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Wtg, Darcy!!!

What a surprise….crying again. I really just want things and life to go back to normal. I’m living in this depressed state of moving from the bed to the couch to the bed, for about three weeks now. Yes I go for the occasional walk w the pup but even so. I had some craves/triggers so I was reading people’s previous SOSs and one was dated around when my dad passed, December 2021 and just kept thinking abt how much he was struggling, from smoking. It was torture to see him like that. And I still want to smoke…still after seeing him like that. Wtf. He even said a few months before…”I think it’s too late for me, but maybe you can stop”. I hope he’s not in pain or struggling anymore. I miss my daddy and love him so very much. I don’t want to feel like that either. Hell I’ve even felt like I can’t breathe recently and the smoke filled thoughts still come. Am I a wimp, not strong enough to just get up off my ass and continue life? Thanks for listening.

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