Evelyn

ok, thanks Wendy LOL now I when I see it I remember how it's spelled!

Some parts of the Netherlands, the south and more inlands have real snow that stays on the ground but I'm close to sea and YES it snows but it's actually a mix of rain and snowflakes, us Dutch call that litterally 'wet snow'. Everybody wants a white Christmas and Santa probably got mixed with the dates LOL Earlier this day I felt horrible, that vacuüm-effact after such days, the silence but I put myself on my feet, went 4 times on my bike to the market (forgot stuff) and I LOVED not being afraid of sweating that my patch would 'fall off', at home I took my woolen socks and my thermo- shirt under my 'bear- sweater' Okay it has no ears but it is a fluffy, cozy, warm vest. Okay I'm drifting away, so sorry but at least the newbies will be distracted.

I fooled myself soooo often with pills, nicotine gums, sprays or patches and in the end I needed to make a choice. Of course sometimes I think What the hell but then I realise for the first time I pulled through cold turkey (with a huge support of our Lord) and I do not NEED nicotine; the fear that has always kept my hostage. No more excuses, no more nicotine replacements shit and go for it; that is what I did and I did drink A LOT of senseo size tea or decaf with LOTS of sugar but I pulled through and now I don't need the sugar any more just half a tea spoon in SOME of my drinks. GO for it and kick some ass!

Yes but I had to prove I could do it CT, I HAD TO, to MYSELF. Those 3 months were not real, now I'm truly 4 days and 19 hours nicotinefree!

I already got paracetamol and something for my throat... men men men I am soooo tired and it's not even 2:30 PM

My throat is sore, just not well. some couphing (how do you spell that) is this the result of of my no longer using nicotine. or just a co-incedence

NOPE!!!!

We have got a 2th Christmas 2, 26th December. Where the only country as far as I know that has this....

Thanks everyone

Hope everyone had a good time. It's morning here again. So NOPE.

Cannot walk very much but I can cycle

Thanks

Very surprising. I've gone from purple to blond and brown highlights. ... This is a combination that has to fit you... not me but you look awesome

I did it... faced my fears. Quit cold turkey. I'm far from reaching my old (phony) 3 months but I proved and faced it. I feel so much better without nicotine... I finally had the courage and faith to pull through. If only I had known it was bearable to pull it off. Thanks everybody and apologies for not taking this step earlier.

Well done jess

It's probably my safe, the 50 cm extra intestine, otherwise I would have still been on nutrition through a tube ;) I'm a miracle! :D

... a present to unwrap for Christmas a special this evening "Dr. Who" and "Call the midwife". I'm settled

I've got lactose intolerance after the bowel got removed.

Sorry for the graphic details.... I kept a lot out

Got some of it out *relieved* after 3 laxatives for intake and well lets say one below... to get it started I HATE my bowels. They almost got my killed in 1999 when I survived a 'knot in my upper intestine' which died and caused huge shock. They kept me on a ventilator for 3 weeks and in a artificial coma... but I pulled through; I surprised everyone from the staff. Last year I had a colon and gastro-scope. Found out my intestine I've got left, 1 mtr large, 50 cm extra on the low intestines. VERY LAZY AND LIKE ELASTIC. Always fun when your shit stays inside, But I smile, caz I don't smoke I'm as bright as the sun!

Why is that? I only use creamer powder for my decaf.... and cheese

I don't use caffeine, only decaf. And what's dairy?

I can't go... I tried fruit, drinking water, laxatives who still have to work... I hate it when I'm blown like a balloon and can't poop normally. THIS must be a very common problem for quittrain'ers: hellup?

Hope you didn't light that cig

F# those dropping sugar levels. I'm close to finishing my 3rd day without nicotine and I can't drink the bloody juice. So I use sugar in tea and decaf. I'm pissed I'm pissed off only because I use less f#king sugar.