Linda

Thank you all!!

Well I have not posted since my last post that I had smoked. Well I had my last cigarette that same morning! So this morning I have a week into it. The so we call hell week. So here I go again!!

@jillar Yes I looked and for sure realize it SUCKS big time!!! Not feeling very strong right now.

@DenaliBlues I can tell you it did not change a damm thing. And sad part of that deep down it wouldn't. The only thing it did was make feel bad about myself. Right now I feel weaker than I did in the beginning of my quit.

Well I was not even going to post this, but I thought it might help others I gave in to my old demons when I had some things happen in my life that I thought I could not handle. I knew better there is not just one!!! I have smoked some for the last 5 days. I am ashamed, angry, at myself and hated to admit this on here. I said when I started this last quit I don't know if I could do it again. It was so hard to get where I was and I blew it!! I thought I had won the battle and I lost!!! So I hope someone can learn from my weakness, it is like what I have read here we are addicts and it can so easily suck you back in!! It did me, and trust It is not a good feeling. I had so many good people and support here not only did I let myself down, I feel like I let others down that helped me get as far as I did. So please don't make the same mistake I did if you are fairly new in your quit!! I was far enough in my quit I thought I knew better!! Stay strong and fight the monster!! The sad part is I did know better,because of the people here and I gave up!! So pissed at myself and feeling very defeated. So fellow train riders stay strong!! As I sit here in tears writing this. It sucks.I thought I had it beat!!

@DenaliBlues Congratulations !!!

I love drumsticks!!! Yummy

6 mix with water wash windows

4 rinse your hair

7 remove small scratch on bumper

@Kris Sounds yummy!! Enjoy!

@AceWhite The Pacific is large for sure, but the great lakes in Michigan are hard to beat.Now the winters are something else here lol

@Kris I messaged you but it must be full. It wouldn't go through. You need to clear your PMs out

@intoxicated yoda Wow 11 months!!! Almost party time on the deck!!

@Kris We do have some beautiful lakes here in Michigan. Come for a visit sometime!! Lol

Just got back from the lake, beautiful day here in Michigan Relaxing with a glass of wine!!

@Kris Congratulations you worked hard to get there but you did it!!!

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Good job @Kris!! I tried to call you, but glad you went to sleep and let it pass!!

@Kris Sorry your having a hard time!! Don't do it! You will regret it. You have come to far to give in to the monster. You know it will not help. Hang in there!! You are stronger than you think my friend

Congratulations @Steven Drojensky I knew you could do it!!

2 brush your teeth

7 Go to Alaska

10 clean under finger nails Toothbrush

@jillar Congratulations on 6 years quit!! Thank you for all the support you give here!!