Vivianne
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-9 Few more hours and there will be another party!! Get your party hats peepz before they are all gone!
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I have been watching Futurama for the last 5 years before falling asleep.. I know every episode by heart.. It's the only show I can fall asleep to...
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*Hugs* Jillar.. 😞
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I am wrong though, there already is some worm called a penis worm.. but I vote for name change... this peanut worm is a better fit for the name *no pun intended*
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A "peanut" worm huh.... Scientists with a sense of humour..what a hoot! Scientist 1:"let's call this a penis worm, as the shape so.." Scientist 2 interupts: "No no! We can't do that!" Scientist 1: "Why not!" Scientist 2: "We don't want to be a laughing-stock like uranus has been" Scientist 1: "You're right let's call it the "peanut" worm
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Nope
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How's the quit going @Steph2019?
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-3 The quittrain just had a hickup lol Couldn't connect anymore
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What also worked like a charm is standing in line at the register between two smokers...who, I think, just finished one before getting in the store...
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@Linda Thomas you are one strong and though cookie! I admire your honesty and openess too. Thank you for sharing!!
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I'll make that deal with you Mighty! Thank you for being so open about your experience- it means a lot to me.
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I've been sick a few days and today I feel much much better, but also home alone since Friday. And that gives me way too much time to think, ponder, over-analyse and lose myself in addiction thinking. So I hung on like a crazy woman. Reading a lot of this and watching a lot of that to keep my head clear in a very literal way. I also wrote down a lot of lies that my addiction keeps telling me in this quit. Time to address one and deal with it. "What does it matter anyway, you are not worth it... " This is a big red flag to me. I have been depressed in the past, and addiction is a mean s.o.b. I'll spare you the details, but I have been fighting and working real hard to be " just happy" from a real early age, and I am happier than I have ever been at the moment. Until that tiny moment I feel lonely or panicky or anything that even resembles that past feeling, my brain reverts back to suicidal tendencies. Not that I want to- but my brain is so programmed to have that way out, that it will go there without my consent. Like a tiny seed that will always be there and starts growing the moment you look away. And my addiction is using that to wiggle it's way in again. On one side - " The urge to find peace and quiet" . Because that's what I actually wanted.. not death, but I was so tired of fighting and surviving.. I just wanted some peace and quiet. And on the other side - "The need to stop fighting and let life go" - and the cig will make sure off that eventually. But I choose Life Every day Actively And I enjoy the heck out of it! I wanted to address the topic of depression and addiction, because I know many are struggling and are ashamed to go into these kinds of thoughts. I have learned to talk about them, openly. The thoughts and feelings are only a danger if I keep them in the shadows and hide them. And I don't want to be part of this statistic - I want to be the exception to the rule! NOPE!!
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I am on a wonderful quit rollercoaster ride... 😛 I just got home after a long walk, breathing away a craving - got some healthy and non healthy snacks and getting ready to write a new blog post
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Am experiencing the cleansing cough right now. My quit so far is like me, always on schedule haha
