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Hi Vinno, welcome ! You will find great support, great advice and great people on this forum

One step at a time and before you know it, you will have walked a mile.

4 hours ago, Doreensfree said:

...your much stronger than any thought...

I think you are  onto something in my case Doreen. For me, a crave starts out as a thought. That thought can either grow into a crave, disspate into nothingness, or teach me something. As long as i am diligent and present, I am in control of what the thought evolves into. 

Nope! Not today

Talk to to the hand nico cause the heads not listening. 

Have a great day everyone. Each of you deserve something special; sending you all love, light and strength. I have a nickname for you all, who are members of a strong group/team...the nicobusters. who you gonna call?

What the heck was I so afraid of? Why did I think I was not strong enough to beat smoking without nicotine help? 

Nothing physically hurt, the craves came and went, now I get a couple craves a day, but I fall back on what I learned and this forum - WE are stronger than any crave; you believe in me and I believe in you who have gone before me - what unbelievable power.

I was so afraid. I thought I was weak. Now here I am thinking of having a cig several times a day and enjoying saying NOPE...NOT TODAY. I don't

 Like nicotine, I like being Smoke free, I like being free, I like not thinking about when and where I will have my next cig as I am putting out the last one. 

I do still think of cigarettes about 2 hours  a day, but it is time i am reprogramming my brain. 

A little  voice tells me to Smoke just one. Begins telling me how good it will be and no one needs to know. Weirdest most craziest thing in the world. I try to tell myself lies about smoking????

just one:  Can't dummy. i am an ADDICT. 

ok then, just a puff: cant dummy i am a addict.

And i dont like to Smoke anymore. I like myself. So go away...you are not welcome here anymore. Nope.

it will be good, just like the good old days 

 Heh. I am onto the  lies , nicotine. Busted. It was never good. Smoking hurt my lungs, my heart, my mind, my life. There is not one good thing nicotine gave or did for me.

Bye bye nicotine. Leave. I don't want you, I don't like you. Go now. 

No one needs to know that you just had one 

Now that I am awoke to my addiction I would know. And that is all that really matters. I cant hide it from myself anymore or live in denial. 

I am stronger than a crave,

you are not a command,

you are a liar and

you want to control me

You want to  kill me

Some friend you are

No way of romanticizing you cig 

I don't Know if I will ever be free of thought of cig,  but I do know that I AM strong enough to keep that thought from becoming real.

I am kind of enjoying this "battle" and learning from each round. Yeah, it may be tough when I am in the throes of it, but IF it gets too tough for me, I have you, so I am not Afraid any longer. 

I hope you are all having a wonderful, Smoke free weekend full of many deep breaths.

This dumb oldie heard and appreciated your words if wisdom give. Thank you. 

And I am sorry that your health is suffering. 

Good morning.

NOPE!

Welcome KBC...to a wonderful place, with some wonderful people. Stay close. You can do this KBC. You have a group of hey quitters here to help you, as they help me. 

Hey jo...where you the author of wheel of Time? I really enjoyed your writing and felt it. It will help prepare me for what is in my future. You are doing well and just keep reaffirming what u know...this will pass and you will come out stronger. You are a remarkable person and your support and and sharing helps newbies like me a lot. Thank you.

Here is something wonderful that happened to me a little bit earlier. I had been pondering how long before I experienced dopamine without having nicotine being the conniving theivi g chemical drug. From what I read, it will be 3 to 6 weeks. 

I took the day off of work again, to take care of me (feels good to do that)  And I went swimming. I reached a new milestone and while I knew it was an accomplishment, I didn't get the dopamine attagirl. Which is ok for now, because they will come back.

As I was floating/meditating in the water, I remembered a time when I was a child that I had reached a swimming milestone and how happy I was at achieving it. I could see myself jumping up and down with joy...It was a major and well deserved dopamine rush...a natural one. And while the dopamine was not generated in my mind today, I was able to remember and share the reward and joy with my younger self - who knew real and free dopamine rewards and feelings, which did not keep you in chains to receive.

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1 hour ago, Boo said:

 

Funny how that works.  Once we commit to the process and quit telling ourselves we can't...we do.  Day-by-day, we just do it. 

Our minds are a very strange thing. I have a good life. At work, I have always been recognized and appreciated for my intelligence, courage to try new things and honesty. Yet here I was facing this quit: Afraid, Didn't Think I was strong enough to overcome a crave,Thought it would be so much worse than it was. 

When saz  kept writing that I was stronger than a crave and could do it ct,  at first I thought she surely didn't Know me..lol. I saw myself as weak and afraid. Once the lies were confronted it was nothing...lol. 

This time I wanted to quit ... For me. I was sick of smoking and bored with smoking. I was so ready to atop.

But yes, once we commit, we just do it. And I am really enjoying the process of quitting and what we go through.

This morning I feel a bit flat mentally. And thinking it may be because I am not getting dopamine because nicotine still has the receptors hijacked, but no nicotine. 

Bye bye nicotine.

and this - quiiting cold turkey - isn't nearly as bad as I feared. So many lies i lived and believed.

Time to do...nothing sometimes

Not thinking about how I am going to get in my next cig

Learning and seeing truths I was "unaware"

My daughter ... she is so patient and supportive. She makes me smile and laugh at myself.

Being free from having to have one, being free from nicotine commands, feeling very good about saying nope

My body and mind recovering

Being on this journey to find myself again

Here's my 420

Nope

Nice.

I didnt go to work today...stayed home so I could take care of myself.:) So i decided i would do some cleaning. And I am amazed at how much cleaning can get done so quicky without having to take a cig break after every task. I turned the music on and cleaned AND...had fun doing it!!! Another lie.

NOPE AND BYE BYE NICOTINE!

So true Doreen. I so understand not seeing those things. I didnt nned tape though. Just didnt look. Been there done that.

Yes, addiction sucks.

Yes ela...yes. I was thinking of the movie matrix and once the old fake reality began unraveling, it was the beginning. Our mind us something else. 

16 hours ago, BKP said:

Bye bye nicotine.  

I love it. This morning I was also singing a song to nicotine:

your not welcome anymore, you tried to make me cry but did I crumble, did i lay down and die. No not I. 

Yep...bye bye nicotine. I remember a breakup with a couple loves of life. At first, I thought about them all the time and cried. Now, I can't even remember ones name. Never give them a thought.

Hugs Jenny. 

Thanks for sharing your journey. It is interesting and you have been helpful to me on my quit. WTG on your smoke free life!

Good morning Nope! 

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Doreen is right,  REJOICE, you don't smoke !

Unbelievable! I DON'T smoke! I DON'T want to smoke! OMG!  I am rejoicing; every moment and every breath. 

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watch your blood sugar, deep clean breaths, cool refreshing water and all the kindness you can muster.

I thought this was just a cliche saying at first Saz. But then I googled and now I understand. I am drinking LOTS of water and eating regularly. I did used to go without breakfast until 11:00 am, then would have brunch. But now, I NEED to eat more regularly - I will eat smaller meals/snacks, but need to keep my blood sugar up.

So far so good. I don't understand why I was so afraid. I am feeling very good and very excitited about this all. If I get a crave, I know what it is; most of the times I can get rid of it with a chuckle at what I am trying to say to myself (have just one), a couple times I had to get up and take a nice walk, others it is medidation. 

One not feeding my body nicotine!!! 11 days not smoking. 

Congrats!