I was you 12 months ago.
31 years of smoking and I started at 13.
Everything you said is almost word for word of what I would say and how I felt at the time.
My best advise to you is:-
- no matter what happens just find a way to keep your quit and go that extra minute, hour, day. Because soon enough it will get easier and you will notice down the track how much better you feel, let alone the feeling of freedom which is awesome. Ie. not having to worry about planning you day around smoking, where are my cigs etc.
I’m still waiting for the day however that cigs don’t come up in my routine checklist before I leave the house. 😀
All the best. Be strong!