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I didn't watch the interview... but I've got plenty of lies I tell myself - or told! -I can have one, no one will know, and I will be a non-smoker again. -I'm not in physical trouble yet, my body is working just fine. And many more. What a great question peace train. I can't wait to look on this later through my quit.

Back to day 1. I needed to make that 100% commitment to myself, whereas before I don't think I really believed it. I have many things to keep me busy today, so I am happy about that. No more smoking for me, ever. ☺

Ugh. I have to reset my timer. I have been writing in my journal for about a month about how this or that cig will be my last... and then... It never is. Ive been lying to myself, giving in to what my addiction wants. I wrote myself a letter in my journal about how all I have ever wanted is to be free. I know I can do it, but I need to be stronger than my little desire or craving. Besides, it is not me who wants it, it's the nic monster.

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I just wanted to say that I am really, really happy that I made the decision to quit smoking. This post would probably be better in the prerespond to your own SOS, but I'm posting it here instead. I have not been smoke free for long, but I am just excited that I made this commitment. It's one of the biggest - best - things I can do for myself. I'm also hoping I can get out some good cries the next few days too :)

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You are doing awesome!!!!! Keep it up! I know your energy level will quickly pick back up!

Hey guys - I am doing okay. I have about 15 notes that I wrote to myself today. Re-read some of Allan Carr's book. I want to be a cheerful person all the time, but realistically that is not possible.

I'm feeling like I just want to have one more cigarette. I'm not sure why my brain is telling me that I should just have one more, when I know full well, that if I have one I become a smoker again... help please!

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Thank you for your words of encouragement. Very much appreciated!

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I have gone another hour without smoking. Took my dog for a walk without smoking. I noticed many baby toads on my walk and they were so cute! I really do tend to notice things more when I am smoke free and that makes me happy.

Holly- as much as you think you know what's best for yourself - you don't if you plan on going back to smoking. There is no such thing as just one cig. There is no such thing as "a better time than now." You will always have stress. You need to learn how to cope with that without going back to nicotine. Our body is a beautiful thing, it can repair itself. The sooner you realize that, the sooner your body will heal. You can do this. The fog is temporary. PS Deep breathing really does help!

Hello- I had to yet again reset my timer. I am thankful to you guys for allowing me to do that. I woke up and somewhat changed my morning routine. I took a shower, fed the dog, made coffee, took the dog out without having a cig. I did, however, have a fog around me. It's like I'm watching myself do things... not all with it. I plan on reading more about blood sugar levels today, as I have a feeling that could be part of my issue. I am confident I will never take another puff. This fog will go away, right? I know it will. I wonder if I should start a blog to express more about how I am feeling.