I'm not on the verge of a relapse or failing the quit, but I am struggling with some aspects of my quit.
The good news: I'm not reaching for the pack (that's no longer) in my pocket every time I go outside. I'm not rationalizing smoking because of things which make me sad, or angry.
The other news which isn't so much bad as challenging: I'm struggling with how to parcel up my day into little chunks.
On regular work days (sort of more task-y & less challenging), I would grab a cigarette every 1.5/2.0 hours. On intense work days, where I'm heads down on a project & making progress, smoking was less regular. In BOTH instances, cigarettes were a kind of reward for just adulting. Note that I also rewarded myself for feeding my child dinner (mommy's going outside for a minute), enduring a couple of hours of existence, etc. But I really did treat the cigarettes emotionally as a kind of treat or reward. And what's happening now is - I don't have anything that gives me that little buzz of a treat or reward. I don't eat sweets, really, so a tiny snack isn't going to do it. I do try to go outside and read a little in the sunshine at appropriate work break times, but I was reading while SMOKING before - so the experience isn't quite as nice.
Not a big problem, I've been pushing through. BUT given that my anxiety & depression levels rise as my routine is disrupted & nicotine leaves (has left) the building, I guess I'd like to find something to give me a little boost through the day. Maybe I could find some kind of affirmation app or something - but I am a little jaded. I also don't have "natural" breaks in my day - I tend to focus for about the same amount of time at work & at home as I did before, but have no little ritual to break the day into more manageable chunks.
I'm not in danger of anything but having some blah to anxious/depressed days - but any suggestions would be welcome.
